Thursday, September 30, 2004
Testi:
This is to certify that Teo Sze Ting Flo, NRIC … of Sec 4/8 was a student of SACSS from 2001 to 2004.
Florence is a good-natured and easy-going student whose sincerity and friendliness make her endearing to her teachers and peers. She served he school as a Lit and Drama rep of her class for two years.
For four years, she was a member of the Catholic Activities council and she displayed exemplary leadership and organisational skills as the head in 2003 and 2004. She participated in an inter-sch Bible quiz and was involved in the Youth Explosion 2003. As a student leader, she participated in the Ministry of Education E5 Cluster leadership Training Camp and the school leadership training camps. For her selfless and dedicated contributions to the council, Flo was awarded the sch’s Appreciation Award in 2004.
Since 2001, Flo was a committed member of the choir. She was made secretary and Sectional leader in 2003 and 2004. She took part in competitions such as the Youth Festival Competition 2001 and 2003 in which the Choir was awarded Silver medals on both occasions, and performed in many performances like Choral Excellence Programme and the Charity busking.
Her eloquence was recognised when she was selected as a member of the debate team that represented the school in the inter-sch Debate Competition and a PESA workshop in 2002.
She is always sensitive and mindful of other people’s needs and was thus selected Peer support leader in 2003. Her role was to give guidance to her juniors in secondary one. She was also active in community. She was also active in community projects like the buddy tutoring in a Fengshan (PAP) education centre in 2002 and the project SPHERE ,a project co-initiated by the Singapore pools and the HCB in 2003.
There… That’s about it… Ofcoz there was much more I did and much more stuff I was selected for… But it’s like all unwritten… So yea… Hahaz…
This is to certify that Teo Sze Ting Flo, NRIC … of Sec 4/8 was a student of SACSS from 2001 to 2004.
Florence is a good-natured and easy-going student whose sincerity and friendliness make her endearing to her teachers and peers. She served he school as a Lit and Drama rep of her class for two years.
For four years, she was a member of the Catholic Activities council and she displayed exemplary leadership and organisational skills as the head in 2003 and 2004. She participated in an inter-sch Bible quiz and was involved in the Youth Explosion 2003. As a student leader, she participated in the Ministry of Education E5 Cluster leadership Training Camp and the school leadership training camps. For her selfless and dedicated contributions to the council, Flo was awarded the sch’s Appreciation Award in 2004.
Since 2001, Flo was a committed member of the choir. She was made secretary and Sectional leader in 2003 and 2004. She took part in competitions such as the Youth Festival Competition 2001 and 2003 in which the Choir was awarded Silver medals on both occasions, and performed in many performances like Choral Excellence Programme and the Charity busking.
Her eloquence was recognised when she was selected as a member of the debate team that represented the school in the inter-sch Debate Competition and a PESA workshop in 2002.
She is always sensitive and mindful of other people’s needs and was thus selected Peer support leader in 2003. Her role was to give guidance to her juniors in secondary one. She was also active in community. She was also active in community projects like the buddy tutoring in a Fengshan (PAP) education centre in 2002 and the project SPHERE ,a project co-initiated by the Singapore pools and the HCB in 2003.
There… That’s about it… Ofcoz there was much more I did and much more stuff I was selected for… But it’s like all unwritten… So yea… Hahaz…
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Great… My heart immediately sank when I said yes… And I can’t deny that I know the reason why… I just hope somehow, if it was meant to be, I’ll get the chance again… I am so not willing to loose even a hair of someone so dear to me… I’ll do at all cost to keep it livin… I guess for most people, who are reading this; you would have guessed I made a choice… I jus don’t know if my plan would all work out… But I’m willing to try…
Ron’s gonna make it tough for me when she finds out… I don’t know if I can live with it… Thank you Pepper for being someone I can count on and Wonkie too for helping me at times… I appreciate it lots… Hell, I’m scared of commitment as I always never is committed to only one thing, I always have a wide range of perspective and favourites it makes it hard for me to choose anything… It’s a scary and risky choice I made… But me gotta go through it and wait for the results… I guess u can say, I am playin with fire… Plz, juz let it go according to plan and let me be strong enuff to live through this and make a right decision…
Exams are just f* up… I feel like getting a rope or looking for a window… Man I feel terrible, but I’m glad I find certain comfort in talking to certain people… It helps me not only to think straight but to kinda brighten up my day as well… ;) Love ya peeps…
Ron’s gonna make it tough for me when she finds out… I don’t know if I can live with it… Thank you Pepper for being someone I can count on and Wonkie too for helping me at times… I appreciate it lots… Hell, I’m scared of commitment as I always never is committed to only one thing, I always have a wide range of perspective and favourites it makes it hard for me to choose anything… It’s a scary and risky choice I made… But me gotta go through it and wait for the results… I guess u can say, I am playin with fire… Plz, juz let it go according to plan and let me be strong enuff to live through this and make a right decision…
Exams are just f* up… I feel like getting a rope or looking for a window… Man I feel terrible, but I’m glad I find certain comfort in talking to certain people… It helps me not only to think straight but to kinda brighten up my day as well… ;) Love ya peeps…
Silent... Was all I could do... So many emotionz was just swimming through my head... I felt sad, dissapointed, devastated, scared and very confuse... Why izzit such a disaster?! Hell, I probabaly deserve what I got!
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Saturday was as usual… Tuition and all… But I slept like about two am… Watched catwoman and man on fire consecutively… Both shows were great man! I can’t believe I actuali cried for both shows! There were so nice…! Sigh… And I was so happy I got my phone back even if it was only for a while coz I missed it so much…! *Three guesses why!*
Grad nite on Friday was not bad, hell tiring, but… Not bad… My stilettos were killer! Yet, I looked so great in them! Hehe… and so was my gown… Went up stage, got my testi and cert n shaked the guest of honour or horror, wadeva she called herself… Smiled, bowed, and left… Phew, and I didn’t fall! Lolz… I thought the envelope was suppose to be empty but I think they know we were short of time so they didn’t bother letting us collect them later and thus put it in to save us the trouble… I also got this cute small write up from Adie! God, she’s a great girl! What she wrote…
Florence: two-legged freak ~ wonderful ~ caring ~ good friend ~ pal ~ getting vain ~ absent minded ~ fun-loving ~ out-going ~ sad ~ faith ~ hope ~ smile ~ silly ~ *ROCK BAND* ~ Funny ~ funky ~ unforgettable: I’ll cherish our friendship. I’m sorry for the wrong that I’ve done. I’m thankful to have you as a friend... Thank you.
Luv: Adie Badie
Had a good time at Pris house… Was cool, cept for her other frens… Pepper and Zmus dint really like Keathen and that Short fart… I personally thought they were alright till I heard that fucker called me a slut! Arsehole! Why?! Was he jealous that her galfren was not as “hot” as I am?! Those idiots kept staring at me, which got Zach really mad… I didn’t really bother coz I’m used to it… Still, at least the two fuckers seem beta than shive! Pepper was so cute; she didn’t dare stay in the room alone with them so she was following anyone that was near her… Haha, so cute… And she hated them cause they were teasing her that she can’t speak her MT well… And I didn’t understand at all… Duh…!
Went to Holy Trinity today… Then headed to Ron’s house with EZ… We mostly talked a lot about stuff… Mostly about her and Keathen… I don’t know why she talks about me and EZ sinning, when she did one big one herself! Being closely related to someone does not mean it’s a sin, and I certainly do not make out without self-control, unlike her and Zmus! Who the hell give her the right to say all that to me?! She was the one who lost her virginity! Fine, I maybe highly sociable with guys, and that’s because I’m super nice and sweet to everyone including girls… So why is she shooting me with judgement when she put so many in trouble, loose her chastity, betrays her friends and worse still, hurt so many others who are close to her?! I know I am capable to do the same but I know how to control it as well, and I will never put myself in front of anyone else! Unlike her! I’ve been train since young to understand and endure many things she cannot! I’ve been taught to control and take things into my own hands so no one else gets the responsibility meant only for me! She should bother and settle her own business before she plants her butt inta others!
Might be playin soccer on Sat…
Grad nite on Friday was not bad, hell tiring, but… Not bad… My stilettos were killer! Yet, I looked so great in them! Hehe… and so was my gown… Went up stage, got my testi and cert n shaked the guest of honour or horror, wadeva she called herself… Smiled, bowed, and left… Phew, and I didn’t fall! Lolz… I thought the envelope was suppose to be empty but I think they know we were short of time so they didn’t bother letting us collect them later and thus put it in to save us the trouble… I also got this cute small write up from Adie! God, she’s a great girl! What she wrote…
Florence: two-legged freak ~ wonderful ~ caring ~ good friend ~ pal ~ getting vain ~ absent minded ~ fun-loving ~ out-going ~ sad ~ faith ~ hope ~ smile ~ silly ~ *ROCK BAND* ~ Funny ~ funky ~ unforgettable: I’ll cherish our friendship. I’m sorry for the wrong that I’ve done. I’m thankful to have you as a friend... Thank you.
Luv: Adie Badie
Had a good time at Pris house… Was cool, cept for her other frens… Pepper and Zmus dint really like Keathen and that Short fart… I personally thought they were alright till I heard that fucker called me a slut! Arsehole! Why?! Was he jealous that her galfren was not as “hot” as I am?! Those idiots kept staring at me, which got Zach really mad… I didn’t really bother coz I’m used to it… Still, at least the two fuckers seem beta than shive! Pepper was so cute; she didn’t dare stay in the room alone with them so she was following anyone that was near her… Haha, so cute… And she hated them cause they were teasing her that she can’t speak her MT well… And I didn’t understand at all… Duh…!
Went to Holy Trinity today… Then headed to Ron’s house with EZ… We mostly talked a lot about stuff… Mostly about her and Keathen… I don’t know why she talks about me and EZ sinning, when she did one big one herself! Being closely related to someone does not mean it’s a sin, and I certainly do not make out without self-control, unlike her and Zmus! Who the hell give her the right to say all that to me?! She was the one who lost her virginity! Fine, I maybe highly sociable with guys, and that’s because I’m super nice and sweet to everyone including girls… So why is she shooting me with judgement when she put so many in trouble, loose her chastity, betrays her friends and worse still, hurt so many others who are close to her?! I know I am capable to do the same but I know how to control it as well, and I will never put myself in front of anyone else! Unlike her! I’ve been train since young to understand and endure many things she cannot! I’ve been taught to control and take things into my own hands so no one else gets the responsibility meant only for me! She should bother and settle her own business before she plants her butt inta others!
Might be playin soccer on Sat…
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Graduation’s tomorrow and I hope everything will be fine…! I hope my gown, which totally defies all the rules, and the stilettos I can’t walk in will be fine… I finally got myself some basic cosmetics today with Ron… blusher and eye shadow… I’ll be going to Ron’s house coz Nk had turn in sick… She’s got a fever and she’ll be one of my closest friends who’ll not be there tomorrow with me… Darn! Now I can’t include her in Pics!
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Yo fattie wonkie, U wana know how hot some of my situation iz right?! Go check Channel I at 10pm this Fri… It shows something of wad I’m in… And I mean something, not is!
Got back some papers today and I feel so disappointed! My only hope of a sure A1 has gone down da pits! E Math… Wah…! So sadenin! All my other subs are juz either borderline or below and E math was suppose to be base! Crap… My paper 1 had so many careless mistakes I oughta go drown myself! For probability, the base was suppose to be denominator was suppose to be 25, and I don’t even know how the hell I got 24!!! And there goes all my marks for 1 blardi question! Then, the question stated 20, I dono why the frick I wrote 280?! Plus all the little things like miscounting and blind reading kena so much marks wasted sia! At the end of the day, my A1 was nothing but a miserable dream away… I got a crapified B3!!! My E math 2 is a goner, so now I’m in utter despair!
Plus my stupid Bio paper is so irritating! When they want detailed answer, I gave vague ones, when they wanted the simple, I gotta be a smart aleck and analyse everything! I mean c’mon! No body said there was a gauge to be how specific! And it was a 2-mark question… And coloured doesn’t mean brightly coloured wad! And they didn’t even teach us the no chlorophyll one! So wad if some of them got it right?! It was pure fluke! We didn’t learn that I know! The MCQ was bad, all the ones I dono got right, and all the ones I thought I knew had mistakes! Sigh… There goes another sub…
Dupid Chem prac… Juz pass! Dupid mistakes and ambiguous answers! Hump!
Graduation on Friday from about 6 to 10 I think… I don really wana go, waste my time onli… So wad if I got some award?! Its like, just that sia… And my gown, dono will be allowed or not… My shawl is like translucent man… Well, it’s a nice gown, look like a ballet dress, simple, spag, bareback and nice… Got contacts n all… Hope all goes well to the least…
Got back some papers today and I feel so disappointed! My only hope of a sure A1 has gone down da pits! E Math… Wah…! So sadenin! All my other subs are juz either borderline or below and E math was suppose to be base! Crap… My paper 1 had so many careless mistakes I oughta go drown myself! For probability, the base was suppose to be denominator was suppose to be 25, and I don’t even know how the hell I got 24!!! And there goes all my marks for 1 blardi question! Then, the question stated 20, I dono why the frick I wrote 280?! Plus all the little things like miscounting and blind reading kena so much marks wasted sia! At the end of the day, my A1 was nothing but a miserable dream away… I got a crapified B3!!! My E math 2 is a goner, so now I’m in utter despair!
Plus my stupid Bio paper is so irritating! When they want detailed answer, I gave vague ones, when they wanted the simple, I gotta be a smart aleck and analyse everything! I mean c’mon! No body said there was a gauge to be how specific! And it was a 2-mark question… And coloured doesn’t mean brightly coloured wad! And they didn’t even teach us the no chlorophyll one! So wad if some of them got it right?! It was pure fluke! We didn’t learn that I know! The MCQ was bad, all the ones I dono got right, and all the ones I thought I knew had mistakes! Sigh… There goes another sub…
Dupid Chem prac… Juz pass! Dupid mistakes and ambiguous answers! Hump!
Graduation on Friday from about 6 to 10 I think… I don really wana go, waste my time onli… So wad if I got some award?! Its like, just that sia… And my gown, dono will be allowed or not… My shawl is like translucent man… Well, it’s a nice gown, look like a ballet dress, simple, spag, bareback and nice… Got contacts n all… Hope all goes well to the least…
Monday, September 20, 2004
The three idiots came over today, hehe… Did amath, kinda… Haha, mostly I juz stood as an extra to do what they can’t do… Well, its ok I guess… I juz need ta work on my timing! I’m so frickin slow… I juz think a lot I think… Lolz… Didn’t finish my physics paper, bio paper, amath1, e.math both 1 & 2, SS, Chem… Need I say more?!
Anyway, life is never a breeze… Some up and downs the past few days… Most of my downs were coz of the preliems, but I still got two my paper left for tmr… N I’m still so unsure about EZ… He seems so nice even after I kinda let it out on him… Will he think about wad I said or will he juz brush it off and forget about it?! Coz I seriously meant what I said even if I sounded a little demanding… Well, he’s nice and sweet and gentlemanly… I know I shouldn’t write this here coz ppl I know will read it, but I trust them to keep their mouth shut!
Dan n Lex sure has a thing against Dhan… The only way I can have a certain amount of freedom is through them… But yet, they are restricting me on purpose by doin things, which I need them to not do… And hell, I’m irritated… I know I’m ur friend, I’ll do anything for you, but I need my space where I get to be with other people too… I mean, as a friend, I already told you lots of info, which I don’t disclose to anyone else, and I allowed you to take favors off me as much as you want… You come over when you want and I’ll entertain you even if I’m half dead… You ask me of much aid and I always try my best ta help… Why then, when I ask you for smth, will you only do it when it is in your favor?! It hurts me so to consider any of my friends to do this to me… They can’t be jealous right?! I spend almost everyday with them…
Still, there have been ups, like spending time with a few certain people… Man, I dono if it has becomes worse or better… I mean I love the time I spent interacting with… And, he’s really a good influence but… He does so many things for me and… I am so confuse… I’m fallin helplessly but I don’t even know if I stand a chance or worse still, will eva get an opportunity to be with… Pluz, there are so many fishes on the bait already and am I really sure I want this one?! Even I haven’t stroked it yet, like I did most of the others… So how, is it possible that I’m so keen on this one?! Will I break the other’s heart?! Someone plz show me the light, I can't believe I really like the idiot!
Anyway, life is never a breeze… Some up and downs the past few days… Most of my downs were coz of the preliems, but I still got two my paper left for tmr… N I’m still so unsure about EZ… He seems so nice even after I kinda let it out on him… Will he think about wad I said or will he juz brush it off and forget about it?! Coz I seriously meant what I said even if I sounded a little demanding… Well, he’s nice and sweet and gentlemanly… I know I shouldn’t write this here coz ppl I know will read it, but I trust them to keep their mouth shut!
Dan n Lex sure has a thing against Dhan… The only way I can have a certain amount of freedom is through them… But yet, they are restricting me on purpose by doin things, which I need them to not do… And hell, I’m irritated… I know I’m ur friend, I’ll do anything for you, but I need my space where I get to be with other people too… I mean, as a friend, I already told you lots of info, which I don’t disclose to anyone else, and I allowed you to take favors off me as much as you want… You come over when you want and I’ll entertain you even if I’m half dead… You ask me of much aid and I always try my best ta help… Why then, when I ask you for smth, will you only do it when it is in your favor?! It hurts me so to consider any of my friends to do this to me… They can’t be jealous right?! I spend almost everyday with them…
Still, there have been ups, like spending time with a few certain people… Man, I dono if it has becomes worse or better… I mean I love the time I spent interacting with… And, he’s really a good influence but… He does so many things for me and… I am so confuse… I’m fallin helplessly but I don’t even know if I stand a chance or worse still, will eva get an opportunity to be with… Pluz, there are so many fishes on the bait already and am I really sure I want this one?! Even I haven’t stroked it yet, like I did most of the others… So how, is it possible that I’m so keen on this one?! Will I break the other’s heart?! Someone plz show me the light, I can't believe I really like the idiot!
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Blaugh! My daes are juz getting worse and worse! Chem paper was hell bad, and Bio… was juz as bad too! I seriously need to watch the time… I don’t seem to have enough time for anything! But it’s all over… Amath tomorrow, I hope I do it well… I’m feelin so crapified…! Need some cheerin up sia… Yoz! After reading this line, the rest of the entry is private! Unless it affects you, don’t lay your eyes on it!
Man, if I’d seriously known I was so sentimental I wouldn’t have gotten myself into weird stuff like this… Now, I feel utterly awkward and strangely, angry… I’m not suppose to be this possessive yet… Sighz, I seriously shouldn’t expect such stuff out of anyone anyway… I mean, people whom are trustable are non-existent anymore… Friends… they are all just a bunch of Ding Dong bats! Well, my close friends are already really good friends and all… but still, until now, I call them my close friends, never ‘best’ friends… Can I really expect so much out of them?!
All my life, my only desire was to find that special someone to share everything with… Someone I could be utterly open with, and someone who is utterly open to me… I don’t care if it was a gal or guy, a cat, a bird or a third millennium creature, all I want is just a friend… A real friend… Someone who has an undying devotion and loyalty to me… Someone I can love unconditionally and be at ease with… Someone who brightens up my day and never fails to trust or be open ta me… Like I will do back… I’ll tell him everything I did and all my dreams, and he’ll do the same… I’ll do anything for him and he as well, will lay down everything he has for me… And most of all, someone who loves me truly, for who I am, not how I look, how popular I am or wadever… With flaws and imperfections n’ all… It got me thinking to the days of my childhood, I’ll pray and pray for this wish… God granted me almost everything except what matters most to my heart… Do I really have to hurt so much?!
Now, I’m putting my faith in a few people… Ones whom I think is worth it… But sometimes, I wonder if I’m doing the right thing… One of them just upset me today, I thought he was suppose to be open and honest… either that, or I’m juz possessive, he kinda betrayed me trust too… Am I able to trust him again?! He is so good ta me most of the time. Well, another one seems to be living in her own world… Only comin out of her shell when she wants to… There is still another one who seems really good at helping, somehow, to make everything seem bigger and more comprehenable… but, he still has a wall over himself so its hard ta tell if he’s true… Then, there’s the other one who drives me up the wall sometimes but he’s hell fun, he brightens me up every time! *Grinz*
Man, if I’d seriously known I was so sentimental I wouldn’t have gotten myself into weird stuff like this… Now, I feel utterly awkward and strangely, angry… I’m not suppose to be this possessive yet… Sighz, I seriously shouldn’t expect such stuff out of anyone anyway… I mean, people whom are trustable are non-existent anymore… Friends… they are all just a bunch of Ding Dong bats! Well, my close friends are already really good friends and all… but still, until now, I call them my close friends, never ‘best’ friends… Can I really expect so much out of them?!
All my life, my only desire was to find that special someone to share everything with… Someone I could be utterly open with, and someone who is utterly open to me… I don’t care if it was a gal or guy, a cat, a bird or a third millennium creature, all I want is just a friend… A real friend… Someone who has an undying devotion and loyalty to me… Someone I can love unconditionally and be at ease with… Someone who brightens up my day and never fails to trust or be open ta me… Like I will do back… I’ll tell him everything I did and all my dreams, and he’ll do the same… I’ll do anything for him and he as well, will lay down everything he has for me… And most of all, someone who loves me truly, for who I am, not how I look, how popular I am or wadever… With flaws and imperfections n’ all… It got me thinking to the days of my childhood, I’ll pray and pray for this wish… God granted me almost everything except what matters most to my heart… Do I really have to hurt so much?!
Now, I’m putting my faith in a few people… Ones whom I think is worth it… But sometimes, I wonder if I’m doing the right thing… One of them just upset me today, I thought he was suppose to be open and honest… either that, or I’m juz possessive, he kinda betrayed me trust too… Am I able to trust him again?! He is so good ta me most of the time. Well, another one seems to be living in her own world… Only comin out of her shell when she wants to… There is still another one who seems really good at helping, somehow, to make everything seem bigger and more comprehenable… but, he still has a wall over himself so its hard ta tell if he’s true… Then, there’s the other one who drives me up the wall sometimes but he’s hell fun, he brightens me up every time! *Grinz*
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Great…! I just screwed up my E math paper! Not only was it tough, but I had to make it worse by screwing up my whole day as well…!!!
Came to school and open my bag I realized I didn’t bring my Chem text to study… Well, that’s not that big a deal since I only had Em paper 2 todae… But hell, right after morn assembly, I was rampaging through me bag again for all my stationeries… Guess wad, I Blardie realize my calculator was not in me Bag!! But thank the good Lord that that 4.7 prefect was next to me and offered me her extra one… Well, although the cal was practically screwed up itself, it was still beta than nuffin… Den, a few moments after me got all my paper, my Pencil had to drop on the floor… And noo! It didn’t drop next to me; it fell right between my Table and the Chair of the gal sitting Infront of me!! How irritating was that?!
Oh, then came the best part… Half way in the paper, I found out my compass dieded!!! So I couldn’t do most of my construction!!! I tried fixing the mech pencil on the compass and after much of my precious time was wasted, it dawn on to me that the fricking thing in the tip of the pencil broke! I was cheating all the way through with my ruler instead! I know I’m not allowed to swear but I sure can’t help it now! So with all the crapy stuff that went on, I reached Qn 10 with only 7 mins left!!! And I’d already skipped a million questions I couldn’t do! In the end, I practically handed in waste paper coz the whole paper was so shitified!!!
Devastated?! I can’t even begin! There are so many “if only”s, it makes no sense for me to blame anything! What icked me out more was that I was so composed during the entire series of disasters… But thank God I was… Or it might have been far worst… I mean, if I had broken down or gave up, the whole entire paper would disintegrate right infront of me eyes… And now, the only subject I hope to score in has just wisped right through my grasp… Hell, frustration and despair, here I come…
Came to school and open my bag I realized I didn’t bring my Chem text to study… Well, that’s not that big a deal since I only had Em paper 2 todae… But hell, right after morn assembly, I was rampaging through me bag again for all my stationeries… Guess wad, I Blardie realize my calculator was not in me Bag!! But thank the good Lord that that 4.7 prefect was next to me and offered me her extra one… Well, although the cal was practically screwed up itself, it was still beta than nuffin… Den, a few moments after me got all my paper, my Pencil had to drop on the floor… And noo! It didn’t drop next to me; it fell right between my Table and the Chair of the gal sitting Infront of me!! How irritating was that?!
Oh, then came the best part… Half way in the paper, I found out my compass dieded!!! So I couldn’t do most of my construction!!! I tried fixing the mech pencil on the compass and after much of my precious time was wasted, it dawn on to me that the fricking thing in the tip of the pencil broke! I was cheating all the way through with my ruler instead! I know I’m not allowed to swear but I sure can’t help it now! So with all the crapy stuff that went on, I reached Qn 10 with only 7 mins left!!! And I’d already skipped a million questions I couldn’t do! In the end, I practically handed in waste paper coz the whole paper was so shitified!!!
Devastated?! I can’t even begin! There are so many “if only”s, it makes no sense for me to blame anything! What icked me out more was that I was so composed during the entire series of disasters… But thank God I was… Or it might have been far worst… I mean, if I had broken down or gave up, the whole entire paper would disintegrate right infront of me eyes… And now, the only subject I hope to score in has just wisped right through my grasp… Hell, frustration and despair, here I come…
Saturday, September 11, 2004
Watched two movies in one day... Anacondas, with Dhan... And The Bourne Supremecy with Dee, Sam and Elsie... Both shows are realli good! Should go check it out!
Friday, September 10, 2004
Dupid blogger! Always goin haywire! Hump! Lolz…
And I’m not spoilt! Well… Maybe a little but definitely not really bad! I mean c’mon! So what if I want things to go my way sometimes?! That’s usually because I know what’s good and right! Well, then maybe there are other times that I make people do stuff I can’t be bothered ta do… But that’s because I’m just lazy…! No biggie…
I mean some people can be really spoilt! And they are so obnoxious and arrogant and indifferent to other’s thoughts and feelings! Now that is spoilt! I’m so not like that! For one thing, I know I’m not obnoxious, arrogant and indifferent to others! I know I’m hell generous and sweet…! I’m always helping and giving and the only thing I want in return is people to listen and understand me… But so far, that’s not working, so I’m actually getting nuffin in return… Except for small little commands and demands I make at times! Hehe… After all, I still do want things to go my way! But worry not; I shall keep the interest of others way ahead of mine…
And I’m not spoilt! Well… Maybe a little but definitely not really bad! I mean c’mon! So what if I want things to go my way sometimes?! That’s usually because I know what’s good and right! Well, then maybe there are other times that I make people do stuff I can’t be bothered ta do… But that’s because I’m just lazy…! No biggie…
I mean some people can be really spoilt! And they are so obnoxious and arrogant and indifferent to other’s thoughts and feelings! Now that is spoilt! I’m so not like that! For one thing, I know I’m not obnoxious, arrogant and indifferent to others! I know I’m hell generous and sweet…! I’m always helping and giving and the only thing I want in return is people to listen and understand me… But so far, that’s not working, so I’m actually getting nuffin in return… Except for small little commands and demands I make at times! Hehe… After all, I still do want things to go my way! But worry not; I shall keep the interest of others way ahead of mine…
Thursday, September 09, 2004
There's so many things I wana talk about,
there's so many things I wana say...
Won't you give a little time ta hear me out,
coz it's probably gonna pay some day...
I know it aint right ta force you ta understand, but
I need you ta comprehend it's not easy to see the light...
Haha, that was a verse composed on da spot when I got on... I'll go play with it later or something... I think the past few days have just been total slack daes for me! Which is soo not good! Shauks, I feel terrified already...! Aniway, I spent it mostly on my handphone, goin out galavanting, and watching crappy shows on TV! It's real weird I hardly come online too though... Prolly goin on more often...
Alot of shit also happened the past few days, with Ron's mum getting mad with me and all! I really shoudnt have stick in da mud for her, now, i've totally lost her mum's trust in me... And Ron still cared more about that dupid f***er den me getting inta troub with her mum! Whats wrong with that b****?! We, her frens, have been doing so much crap for her just to make sure she doesnt go into depression and at the same time, kept pushin and advisin her to dump that arsehole! All he wants, is to use her as his alternative to all his sluty one night stands! He can play and have fun with all those other girls and then come back to a galfren that does what he wants! How blind and hopeless can Ron get! Isn't it all obvious to her?! Eventhough I keep so many gruesome details from her, I wanted her to just trust us, her friends and listen! I can't bare to tell her all the details coz she'll probably break down and cry, or worse still, don't listen to what I'm sayin! What a fool she is!
And I can't believe I did all those stuff for her just to get into troub and watch her stray away again... And the worst part that hurt was, that she probably couldn't care less what will become of me after I help her with all these trash! Yea... So whats wrong with me?! Why am I always so soft to everyone in need! Sometimes, I hate myself for trying to help coz I'll be the one getting all the wrath back anyway! And plus, nobody gives a Damn! Or to the least, open their eyes and understand whats happening! Its like..., whats the use of tryin so hard to help when all will end up in vain again... It just puts more weight on my heart to not only get back the sharp stabs, but to see the pain in the people around me suffering for their ignorance and their inability to comprehend the truth...
How much more do I have to face and yet mask myself from what I trully know... How much more can I hide in order to let them live in ignorance and "bliss"?! Sigh... I can't believe this whole blog apply to so many people I know... Well, I guess it can do no harm because most don't bother or know about the blog and even if they do read it, what are the chances of them understanding?! zero to none?! No surprise there...
there's so many things I wana say...
Won't you give a little time ta hear me out,
coz it's probably gonna pay some day...
I know it aint right ta force you ta understand, but
I need you ta comprehend it's not easy to see the light...
Haha, that was a verse composed on da spot when I got on... I'll go play with it later or something... I think the past few days have just been total slack daes for me! Which is soo not good! Shauks, I feel terrified already...! Aniway, I spent it mostly on my handphone, goin out galavanting, and watching crappy shows on TV! It's real weird I hardly come online too though... Prolly goin on more often...
Alot of shit also happened the past few days, with Ron's mum getting mad with me and all! I really shoudnt have stick in da mud for her, now, i've totally lost her mum's trust in me... And Ron still cared more about that dupid f***er den me getting inta troub with her mum! Whats wrong with that b****?! We, her frens, have been doing so much crap for her just to make sure she doesnt go into depression and at the same time, kept pushin and advisin her to dump that arsehole! All he wants, is to use her as his alternative to all his sluty one night stands! He can play and have fun with all those other girls and then come back to a galfren that does what he wants! How blind and hopeless can Ron get! Isn't it all obvious to her?! Eventhough I keep so many gruesome details from her, I wanted her to just trust us, her friends and listen! I can't bare to tell her all the details coz she'll probably break down and cry, or worse still, don't listen to what I'm sayin! What a fool she is!
And I can't believe I did all those stuff for her just to get into troub and watch her stray away again... And the worst part that hurt was, that she probably couldn't care less what will become of me after I help her with all these trash! Yea... So whats wrong with me?! Why am I always so soft to everyone in need! Sometimes, I hate myself for trying to help coz I'll be the one getting all the wrath back anyway! And plus, nobody gives a Damn! Or to the least, open their eyes and understand whats happening! Its like..., whats the use of tryin so hard to help when all will end up in vain again... It just puts more weight on my heart to not only get back the sharp stabs, but to see the pain in the people around me suffering for their ignorance and their inability to comprehend the truth...
How much more do I have to face and yet mask myself from what I trully know... How much more can I hide in order to let them live in ignorance and "bliss"?! Sigh... I can't believe this whole blog apply to so many people I know... Well, I guess it can do no harm because most don't bother or know about the blog and even if they do read it, what are the chances of them understanding?! zero to none?! No surprise there...
Monday, September 06, 2004
Sighz... Todae was not a pretty bad day, but yet, not so bad as well... Was so pissed with my dad da whole morn coz he didnt allow me to go to Pris' house! And he didnt even give me a proper reason why! I mean I wasted practically my whole day doing nothing worthwhile at all! Pris didnt go for choir so she could be with me for mass, and Dhan canceled his plans thinking he could see me... I feel so guilty! But noo...! My dad just had to say no and spoil everyone's day! But da good part of da whole day was that I had some good frens for company, on my hp and phone and all... Including da two idiots! Hahaz...
On Wed, went jammin... Was hell cool! But damn loud! My eardrums was like goin ta burst! Da bois just blasted their instruments off man! And KK was great on da drums! Will get him to teach me aft exams! And Dhan gotta get singin lessons! He's not bad, but he's not singin either! Den, Me and Pris went to da airport to meet up with the three idiots for buffet at Sakae Sushi! It was damn fun! Those two fools, Lex and Dan took so many pics in my hp that it's gonna burst! It's too bad I'm da onli one to have a cam fone!
Thur, Nk came ova to stardee... Yea rite we studied! Hahaz! Den, I "followed Nk home" and went explorin with Dhan... Whee...! It was kinda fun! Den, on Fri, the whole lot of them came over ta do work, didnt do much though... And later, we all walked to da beach, aft meetin Dhan... And Lex was pissed with us as usual... Shant talk about it incase I start an essay... Den went back with Dhan by much explorin again... I wonder if his dreams will ever come true...
Sat, I could get up later coz there was nuffin on in da morn… Had tuition… Den, had my dinner at Grand Hyatt Hotel to celebrate Sam and Mum’s belated birthday… Had so many prawns! Both were born on the 31st of August and Mum is as old as Malaysia, I think… Just and Jul was so cute! Miss them so much… Tmr hafta wake up early to ask pups help with paper, den, gotta head to SP for aeronautical studies! Hope it’s worth my time…
On Wed, went jammin... Was hell cool! But damn loud! My eardrums was like goin ta burst! Da bois just blasted their instruments off man! And KK was great on da drums! Will get him to teach me aft exams! And Dhan gotta get singin lessons! He's not bad, but he's not singin either! Den, Me and Pris went to da airport to meet up with the three idiots for buffet at Sakae Sushi! It was damn fun! Those two fools, Lex and Dan took so many pics in my hp that it's gonna burst! It's too bad I'm da onli one to have a cam fone!
Thur, Nk came ova to stardee... Yea rite we studied! Hahaz! Den, I "followed Nk home" and went explorin with Dhan... Whee...! It was kinda fun! Den, on Fri, the whole lot of them came over ta do work, didnt do much though... And later, we all walked to da beach, aft meetin Dhan... And Lex was pissed with us as usual... Shant talk about it incase I start an essay... Den went back with Dhan by much explorin again... I wonder if his dreams will ever come true...
Sat, I could get up later coz there was nuffin on in da morn… Had tuition… Den, had my dinner at Grand Hyatt Hotel to celebrate Sam and Mum’s belated birthday… Had so many prawns! Both were born on the 31st of August and Mum is as old as Malaysia, I think… Just and Jul was so cute! Miss them so much… Tmr hafta wake up early to ask pups help with paper, den, gotta head to SP for aeronautical studies! Hope it’s worth my time…
Friday, September 03, 2004
okie... I juz wrote a whole blog which went black in a matter of seconds! Man, that sux!
So i'm only gonna write the jist of it all... Went jammin, went studyin, went beach, went sakae sushi, msged pups! Went explorin with dhan, hav alot of pics in my hp, idiots came to my house often, had lotsa fun in everything, dupid Sam big tell tale, preliems sucked...
Alright, If i can rem all the detials, I'll write it the nex time, too tired to write now... *Yawnz...!* Kittie needs her sleep! Purr... Nights luvez...
So i'm only gonna write the jist of it all... Went jammin, went studyin, went beach, went sakae sushi, msged pups! Went explorin with dhan, hav alot of pics in my hp, idiots came to my house often, had lotsa fun in everything, dupid Sam big tell tale, preliems sucked...
Alright, If i can rem all the detials, I'll write it the nex time, too tired to write now... *Yawnz...!* Kittie needs her sleep! Purr... Nights luvez...
