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Haha... Its kinda funny to watch guys go head over heels and chase after one girl... Especially when I'm on the sidelines just observing... I guess I took on that role when I became friends with her... sa is sweet and nice, but who would ever thought that her flirtatious character is so lame... But still I like her just the same with her fickle-mindedness and lame retorts... It makes her look funny... At least she can tell between crazy and stupid, bitches and saints, but does she have to be so oblivious to her own character and to others views?! It is a pity she never understood it. After all, she is pretty, nice and funny... Well enough about her for today. Laur came today to play again, haha... Was kinda fun, eatin the stuff elsie made and commenting on the game and drew... Haha! She even talk to nick! Which made me a little pissed because I already knew it'll make her look stupid, but she wouldn't listen till she felt it herself... Some people need to listen and learn instead of speaking without thinking... Or it'll make them look utterly ridiculous! But then again, some people never learn, hehe! Its juz too bad then!

Got confirmed today... Yippie!But i'll miss alot of people... Literally... And that idiot probably doesn't even know I exist man! Sigh... What can I say... Had a terrible morning, but i guess miracles do happen... Even if it was a small one... I survived everything, including my 2 inches+ shoes that was killing me! Ah, and most of my close friends came! Sumz and Zens were there... Adie and Emo were there... And me Godma came... Haha, i guess it was full of miracles, except for that stupid fella... Wadever man... I looked alright even without me gown, I guess I was alright to be be bride Jae... Bought the tickets for the Bash, i hope it's worth it! And to those people who made it happen for me today... Luv ya'll!

Life is such a drag sometimes! Everything is such a routine... But I'm gonna be busy this few days... Had en exco meeting today, and there was a communication breakdown about where and when the meeting was held again. But what else is new! Those people have always been like that anyway! Made me skipped my tuition because of it! But den again, I do the time for rest and play.

Having my 2.4 tomorrow after school at Bedok reservoir, what a stupid time and place! They had it last year and so many people failed because the distance was increased by 400 meters. And I miss the bloody Gold by 15 seconds! Well this year, I'm getting a gold no matter what! My five items on Wednesday wasn't so bad as I thought even without my training. Got 2 As and 3 Bs, could have gotten more As but was too damn lazy to have a second try. At least I'm satisfied with my marks cause I can get a gold. Now all that's left is my runs to complete and at least a C to get! Wish me luck!

This Sunday is confirmation and I'm actually nervous! One huge reason is probably because I might be the only soul idiot who's wearin' a gown! I mean it's gorgeous but everyone is wearin' simple while I have to wear something as formal as that... Oh, I'm gonna be so embarrass! And what more, it's bareback! Plus those stilts I'm suppose to wear! Doesn't anyone care if I fall?! Jae, juz save me, please...!

Finally I kinda learn more about managin' me post... haha, I guess I really am a country pumpkin like Dilbert said i was. Man... I skipped CCA today! Feels good boy! Hehe, i gotta do it more often. Exams are around the corner and I've already sign my death contract! This is really bad! I don't have my handphone anymore, how am I to survive! Heyz... At least I'm still permitted to use the net, or I'll be six feet underground before you can even say Rest in Peace!

Hehe, but today is International Friendship day, so I still had abit of fun to live on! Adie gave me a orange hanger with me name written in glittered glue, isnt that sweet! I've still yet to return her all the prezzies I owe her! Ster gave me sweet and so did Zhongwei! Neile gave me lollipops, one for me and one for Sam. That is so generous of her, she even gave Glen, Clare and Ster's Sis! Lindy gave me a peg with me name written on it. And Melissa Leong is such a sweetie! She crafted the whole class' names with strands of wire, two different shades of green and one silver wire. I don't know how she found the time to make it but it wat really thoughtful of her. Man I gotta get everyone prezzies too!

Talked to a friend today, never knew he was so empathatic... Was nice talkin to him, had a good convo on expression of feelings and views. Laur came to me house to use the comp today, had a fun time with her. And I am so screwed for Bio practical tomorrow, I'm probably gonna get screwed for attempting to blow up the lab again! So late!

I feel drained... Went to the Polyclinic today, found out the pain was a torn ligament at my knuckle... Haha, at least it's not something serious! Found out who me bunny was! None other than............Adie Badie! Ha! Coulda guess, only she would have a mind like that, interesting girl she is... Hmm, a little of what I feel in my life...

Everytime when I thought that there was no one to save me
From the darkness of my heart
There was nothing else I could do But cry alone in the dark
Too many a time I've I heard them say that they will be there for me
But in the end, They will turn away
And say I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but it's too late

Do you know how it stings my eyes
When I've been so blind
I never would have trusted if I knew that it could hurt so bad
And even if a dagger ripped my heart out
It'll fell so good, They'll be no more pain

So I act, I'm alright
And I seal whats inside
And i crash, But I laugh
Not meeting their eyes
But no matter how I try
I cant deny, I'm alone in the world...

Gosh... I have to find the time and come here more often... Then maybe I could do it up and set the tone right. Haha, another one of my horrandous days today, felt like crap! Almost sent to RTC beacause of incomplete work, how crapified is that, at least I bother to try if she actually bothered to check the markings and the scribles... Well, at least I literally THANK GOD that addie found some mistakes in the recording of the first two offence. I mean i didn't even deserve the first two offence that someone else did and I got pulled in along with her. And I don't blame her, I blame Life! It's just too unfair... So my offences got pulled back to two when auddie clamied she made a mistake of writing the first offence as two. Note i used "claimed". Hope it didn't cost anything to anyone. But I guess i gotten out of trouble again by crossing the thin line. I've been too lucky for so long, always playin' the dice, takin' too many risk. I either win some or lose some but the fact that I'm this carefree scares me. I probably won't be so lucky the next time. Ha! We'll see the next spin soon enough won't we Jae!

Jee, some sweetheart cheered me up nonetheless today with two Ester eggs! It actually saved me tummy before recess! And I'm determine to find out who this kind soul is! Hey sweetie bunny, come out, come out wherever you are!

Gosh.... This is a tryout i guess... Wonder if this would actually work... for me that is... If it's something i'll get use to, i might even live on it. It may even take the role of my dairy... Well here it goes! Wish me luck!