Monday, August 30, 2004
This is crapified! My whole net crashed and my bro found out on Sun... And my Dee said it was all Kazaa's fault! And I seriously dont think so! It was always fine when I used it... I think it's Sam's! He's always playing stuff on the net, God knows what he did when we were not watching!
Wads with Dee and everything I like... It seems wadeva i like is what he say will eventually not be good for me! Rite... And as if my life is not complicated enough, Dee thinks he owns mine... Shive and Ron should reali breakup! Dupid gal ask me to msg him and all, and now, I found out so many things I wish I never got involved... All that guy wants is what all indecent guys want... And the stupid gal is so blur and blind to it all! And her boyfren is trying to flirt with a gal he doesnt even noe, namely, me! coz dupid Ron made me pretend I was someone else and do this all for her as a fren!
I hate all these crap... And why do I always have to be so nice to everybody?! It's like an inbuilt machanism! I can get pissed, but never for long if the person makes it up... Ppl shouldnt get pissed to often... It's not a pretty face and you might make someone elses day bad too... I mean, how would you feel if someone who is pissed vent his frustration out on you when you did notthin wrong...?! Think... Don't always act to fast on emotions...
Wads with Dee and everything I like... It seems wadeva i like is what he say will eventually not be good for me! Rite... And as if my life is not complicated enough, Dee thinks he owns mine... Shive and Ron should reali breakup! Dupid gal ask me to msg him and all, and now, I found out so many things I wish I never got involved... All that guy wants is what all indecent guys want... And the stupid gal is so blur and blind to it all! And her boyfren is trying to flirt with a gal he doesnt even noe, namely, me! coz dupid Ron made me pretend I was someone else and do this all for her as a fren!
I hate all these crap... And why do I always have to be so nice to everybody?! It's like an inbuilt machanism! I can get pissed, but never for long if the person makes it up... Ppl shouldnt get pissed to often... It's not a pretty face and you might make someone elses day bad too... I mean, how would you feel if someone who is pissed vent his frustration out on you when you did notthin wrong...?! Think... Don't always act to fast on emotions...
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
yikes... no time to blog at all... Betta write wad I can first! Mum brougt over the new (not so new actuali) drum pads for Sam... It's real cool... And I had Zach over to help me do it up... And I have to admit, he's not bad on the drums and really good on the guitar! It's great wactchin him do his thing since he's so good at it... Had my new hp too, Zach said it was a 6 smth... Dun ask me wad model coz I nver bother with all this crap... All i noe is tt it has radio and cam... Wana go learn guitar after exams... and I'll prolly pull Merp and Puppie along... Dun wana learn alone sia... Maybe me go take up piano or smth too... Haiz... I beta focus on work first!!!
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Hmm... I wonder how Dan got the courage to do it?! Maybe I should do it too... If I don't get killed, Sam would... And this is so real... I can feel the sharp point at the back forcing me forward... the edge is colse that I can fall any second... Wad if I break?! Will I fall to untold and bottled depression and confusion again...? I hate that conner of mine... It has always been there... I wish someone will enter it with me... So at least, I won't feel so alone...
Dee's not listenin at all... He thinks wadever he thinks is rite... Flawless... Maybe it is... But it's sure heartless as well! Me and sam can't take it... Over protective isnt the word.. It's more of obsesive wants... To the point that all his help or righteousness becomes selfish and hurtful... And we the victims find ourselves pushed to the brink with all our emotions! And worse still, Sam's never like and understand all this crap Dee gives so the usual hate and anger is building in him again, till one day... When he blows, he blows with more than juz violence... Radiated hatred and fustration can actuali be felt a mile away and what more, he doesnt tell us wads wrong, he juz lash... Three guesses whr he leart it from!
Dee is so unreasonable I dont understand how he can be so heartless to us...?! There is so many things people can tell their parents and discuss stuff with them but wenevr I try... And I mean, so hard! It always still remained a one sided convo... Its always him talking and not listening... And me, preteneding to listen... How can he expect us to listen to his "advice" wen he doesnt even listen to our problems?! And even if he did listen, he never bothers about wad we felt, never judge our personality right, never having the right expectations in us... Basically, it's all about what he wants, what he feels and what he thinks is right...
And all that... Is so painfull to endure... Is bad enough that I come from a broken family... But all these unspoken tentions is making it worse! He talks to who?! Elsie aboth all these! I mean she is our maid! Fine, she can be the little spy in the family but still, how can u believe and interpret everyhing someone else sae and not ur own kids?! One other thing I hate is the trust... Dee doesnt trust nobody else but himself... And nomatter wad I do, its never up to his standards of bein independant... I dun exactly bring back bad marks, I dun go doing supid stuff, I gotten myself as far as bein coucil head and even of a council that is CAC! And was promoted for another council but I declined, was promoted for peer support, mantained good frens, keep myself civilised and open, weary and respectfull... What more does he want?!
Now, recently, I got involve with alot of crap... I want to tell him so much but ofcoz, prolly never will... He'll prolly kill even before he bother sayin anything... I almost got involve with the police and all... and all those dupid shit some of my frens did... And frens I want to talk about... But still, it's so hard to reach him... He thinks and decide his own way, not caring wad we feel and think... I mean, everyone of us have our own perspective, the least he could do is try to understand and relise wad we think... I love him seriously and know that we are the only thing left dear to his heart, after all the things he'd been throgh with mum and some other family problems probably hardened his heart... He is a good father, sorta... But i hate his attitude and narrow-mindedness...
Juz decided to write this todae coz he declined me from goin down to study with Zach... I tried explainin to him that it was one of the times I really studied and that Zach, is a guy that's alrite... Dee juz thinks all my frens and guys out there are tryin to get me... What kind of father doesn't even trust his daugher's judgement?! I noe how to handle my life and frens well, and i have proven it countless of times... maybe not infront of him, but I noe I can do it, coz I've did it before! He doesnt noe the number of guys I've turned down and he doesnt noe my frens like I do... He doesnt noe that i'm a pillar of strength to most of my frens and I'm not a person who sit idle waiting for things to happen... He thinks I'm fooling around with my life and mixing with the wrong people... Plz! I'm sixteen! I do noe how to run my life! And I noe how to not be a big screw up! Thats for sure!
There is so many things I wana do with life and I don't noe how much he is goin to limit me from... Half the stuff I do are already kept away from him... I mean, wad is the use of telling him wen he either brushes it away or take it the way he wants to take it?! I noe there are so many of prayes that was heard, but why isnt this one of them?! Sam is another big prob, I love him to bits! And he prolly doesnt even give a damn... What can I sae about my own flesh and blood that literally thretened me with a knife at my throat?!
Dee's not listenin at all... He thinks wadever he thinks is rite... Flawless... Maybe it is... But it's sure heartless as well! Me and sam can't take it... Over protective isnt the word.. It's more of obsesive wants... To the point that all his help or righteousness becomes selfish and hurtful... And we the victims find ourselves pushed to the brink with all our emotions! And worse still, Sam's never like and understand all this crap Dee gives so the usual hate and anger is building in him again, till one day... When he blows, he blows with more than juz violence... Radiated hatred and fustration can actuali be felt a mile away and what more, he doesnt tell us wads wrong, he juz lash... Three guesses whr he leart it from!
Dee is so unreasonable I dont understand how he can be so heartless to us...?! There is so many things people can tell their parents and discuss stuff with them but wenevr I try... And I mean, so hard! It always still remained a one sided convo... Its always him talking and not listening... And me, preteneding to listen... How can he expect us to listen to his "advice" wen he doesnt even listen to our problems?! And even if he did listen, he never bothers about wad we felt, never judge our personality right, never having the right expectations in us... Basically, it's all about what he wants, what he feels and what he thinks is right...
And all that... Is so painfull to endure... Is bad enough that I come from a broken family... But all these unspoken tentions is making it worse! He talks to who?! Elsie aboth all these! I mean she is our maid! Fine, she can be the little spy in the family but still, how can u believe and interpret everyhing someone else sae and not ur own kids?! One other thing I hate is the trust... Dee doesnt trust nobody else but himself... And nomatter wad I do, its never up to his standards of bein independant... I dun exactly bring back bad marks, I dun go doing supid stuff, I gotten myself as far as bein coucil head and even of a council that is CAC! And was promoted for another council but I declined, was promoted for peer support, mantained good frens, keep myself civilised and open, weary and respectfull... What more does he want?!
Now, recently, I got involve with alot of crap... I want to tell him so much but ofcoz, prolly never will... He'll prolly kill even before he bother sayin anything... I almost got involve with the police and all... and all those dupid shit some of my frens did... And frens I want to talk about... But still, it's so hard to reach him... He thinks and decide his own way, not caring wad we feel and think... I mean, everyone of us have our own perspective, the least he could do is try to understand and relise wad we think... I love him seriously and know that we are the only thing left dear to his heart, after all the things he'd been throgh with mum and some other family problems probably hardened his heart... He is a good father, sorta... But i hate his attitude and narrow-mindedness...
Juz decided to write this todae coz he declined me from goin down to study with Zach... I tried explainin to him that it was one of the times I really studied and that Zach, is a guy that's alrite... Dee juz thinks all my frens and guys out there are tryin to get me... What kind of father doesn't even trust his daugher's judgement?! I noe how to handle my life and frens well, and i have proven it countless of times... maybe not infront of him, but I noe I can do it, coz I've did it before! He doesnt noe the number of guys I've turned down and he doesnt noe my frens like I do... He doesnt noe that i'm a pillar of strength to most of my frens and I'm not a person who sit idle waiting for things to happen... He thinks I'm fooling around with my life and mixing with the wrong people... Plz! I'm sixteen! I do noe how to run my life! And I noe how to not be a big screw up! Thats for sure!
There is so many things I wana do with life and I don't noe how much he is goin to limit me from... Half the stuff I do are already kept away from him... I mean, wad is the use of telling him wen he either brushes it away or take it the way he wants to take it?! I noe there are so many of prayes that was heard, but why isnt this one of them?! Sam is another big prob, I love him to bits! And he prolly doesnt even give a damn... What can I sae about my own flesh and blood that literally thretened me with a knife at my throat?!
Monday, August 23, 2004
Prelims is starting on thursday, Dupid Chem prac and the shifts... Thank god we only have two classes taking chem sia! I can't imagine for sub phy bio! We'll probably stay till six I tell you! And Eng SS nex week, havent even started any revision yet... So blardi screwed! So many other crap on my mind now... Dad came home todae and blew his top on me and Sam... Apparently, that idiot failed his majour subs! And my dad was talking about guys and why he thought guys are like a no no now... He seriously thinks all guys are out ta get me sia! Well, moz of them are jerks anyway... Including him... Although there are the exceptional few whom I shant mentioned before it gets to their ego or smth...
Sun was really weird, spend my day at Ron's with her bro and Zach too... That gal seriously have problems sia! Met her in the mornin cryin dat he was gonna break up with her, den call me later in the nite wen i got back home and told me Shive was testing her! Walao! Like this also fun meh?! These idiots seriously need a life man! I juz can't help pityin her... Me and Zach had to comfort her the whole entire day! We also kinda had a great time at her house, chatted alot about all kinds of stuff... Later, me and Zach took a taxi home and den Zmus called! Wanted me to go to the gym with her again! Lolz, I told her she was crazy! Aniway, she wanted to talk to me so she and Kiren popped by and Zach came along coz he stupidly left his stuff in me bag this mornin! Haiz, damn mafan rite! At least he helped me tune me guitar...
And the whole of todae was talkin to Ster about my probs... The usual... Dis and dat... Idiots and more idiots... Love and war... Studies and slacking... And dat wonkie wana get involve with my relations... I mean seriously, I dun mind it ster... But I dono how much of this shit she herself wans to get into... It can all be darn complicated u noe... I juz hope she dont get messed up too!
Sun was really weird, spend my day at Ron's with her bro and Zach too... That gal seriously have problems sia! Met her in the mornin cryin dat he was gonna break up with her, den call me later in the nite wen i got back home and told me Shive was testing her! Walao! Like this also fun meh?! These idiots seriously need a life man! I juz can't help pityin her... Me and Zach had to comfort her the whole entire day! We also kinda had a great time at her house, chatted alot about all kinds of stuff... Later, me and Zach took a taxi home and den Zmus called! Wanted me to go to the gym with her again! Lolz, I told her she was crazy! Aniway, she wanted to talk to me so she and Kiren popped by and Zach came along coz he stupidly left his stuff in me bag this mornin! Haiz, damn mafan rite! At least he helped me tune me guitar...
And the whole of todae was talkin to Ster about my probs... The usual... Dis and dat... Idiots and more idiots... Love and war... Studies and slacking... And dat wonkie wana get involve with my relations... I mean seriously, I dun mind it ster... But I dono how much of this shit she herself wans to get into... It can all be darn complicated u noe... I juz hope she dont get messed up too!
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Absence makes the heart grow fonder... So quit it! It hurtz! *sighz* Shan't dwell on it...
Aniway, had emath mock today, kinda dupid coz half the time we were exchanging anwers...! Haha... and the other dae, during bio, we had our repro in man test and it was not so bad la... But the funni part was wen before Mrs Yeong gave out our test, she was sayin this test was shit easy its imposible to fail! Lolz, den half of us pointed to the painting and moto on our back wall and said, "Make the impossible possible!" And Mrs Yoeng was giving us her usual, 'you wana die ar?!', look... Haha, but we all completed the paper in less than 15mins... Thank god there wasnt much on contraception and da dupid period thing... And yea, no sexually transmitted diseases to our utter bliz...
Wana go jammin, wana go watch AVP, wana watch competition, wana go out with certain frens, need to collect prezzie, need to buy ness prezie, and Lex too sia! Too many! Yikes, I beta start on work! soon...
Aniway, had emath mock today, kinda dupid coz half the time we were exchanging anwers...! Haha... and the other dae, during bio, we had our repro in man test and it was not so bad la... But the funni part was wen before Mrs Yeong gave out our test, she was sayin this test was shit easy its imposible to fail! Lolz, den half of us pointed to the painting and moto on our back wall and said, "Make the impossible possible!" And Mrs Yoeng was giving us her usual, 'you wana die ar?!', look... Haha, but we all completed the paper in less than 15mins... Thank god there wasnt much on contraception and da dupid period thing... And yea, no sexually transmitted diseases to our utter bliz...
Wana go jammin, wana go watch AVP, wana watch competition, wana go out with certain frens, need to collect prezzie, need to buy ness prezie, and Lex too sia! Too many! Yikes, I beta start on work! soon...
Friday, August 20, 2004
Breathe... It's esential for times that are stressful such as these... Lolz, Zach's havin a copetition on Fri and he demands my presence there... I don wan to go alone sia, prolly wait for ppl to ask me if they could come along... Crap, I cant find my St. Margrets amath papaer now! Wah!!! I'm so gonna be screwed by Ms. Tok...!
Sheesh, yesterday was crapified man! I kena scolded coz I lent Ron my Cham text book for open book test! I mean c'mon! The two idiots at the back didnt have their book at all and since Me and Wonkie did, wads wrong with sharing?! She makes it seem as if its a crime! Fine, Scold la! Den got that day wen Elish kena chalk on her back, Dat bitch lectured and gave us a cold sholder coz neither of us would agree to go to the toilet with her to help her remove the chalk... Dupid rite! I mean she was the one who told Elish to stand at the back aniway, and its Elish own fault to lean on the wall wen ur she's bein punished! And plus, she has no right to disipline us on such matters when she herself was never reali good at it... Plz remove the log in your eye before trying to remove the splinter in your brother's!
Okie, I'm getting more agitated my the second... I gotta breathe... In... Out... In... Out... Yeah, and some people hafta stop asuming especially wen they are looking at only one side of the picture! It's getting me pissed especially wen ppl ask for opinions and later dismiss it as juz mere gibberish! Every thought counts sia! You want opinion, you hear it! U wana judge, you dont be bias! You wana decide, think of others! You wana accuse, make sure you urself dont do such stuff! Nvr, I mean Nvr make a judgement unless absolute assurance is contemplated over! And plz... Dont think big if you cant even think right! Seek guidiance la, or foreva hold ur peace! In other words, a narrowminded freako who thinks wadeva he saes is right and not see the value is other's words! Tt's wad I call a real FOOL!
*Sighz* I'm in need of aid... Gotta stop thinking abt stupid idiots! the more I think, the more I fall, and it's no use trying to solve it, its useless especially at this point of time! Shauks, gotta stop pondering ova such matters! Juz why oh why do i have to feel smth or act the way I do everytime... It competely makes no sense that I am thrilled coz... And dissapointed coz... Sheesh! I dont wana think! It doesnt even help aniway! Some idiots are so idiotic aniway! Lolz! Guys shouldnt be wimps! Haha, if they want smth, they should go get it! Dun juz sit there and wait for it to happen! Yikes, wad am I even sayin! okie okie, i beta chaioz before I metion animore smart crap!
Sheesh, yesterday was crapified man! I kena scolded coz I lent Ron my Cham text book for open book test! I mean c'mon! The two idiots at the back didnt have their book at all and since Me and Wonkie did, wads wrong with sharing?! She makes it seem as if its a crime! Fine, Scold la! Den got that day wen Elish kena chalk on her back, Dat bitch lectured and gave us a cold sholder coz neither of us would agree to go to the toilet with her to help her remove the chalk... Dupid rite! I mean she was the one who told Elish to stand at the back aniway, and its Elish own fault to lean on the wall wen ur she's bein punished! And plus, she has no right to disipline us on such matters when she herself was never reali good at it... Plz remove the log in your eye before trying to remove the splinter in your brother's!
Okie, I'm getting more agitated my the second... I gotta breathe... In... Out... In... Out... Yeah, and some people hafta stop asuming especially wen they are looking at only one side of the picture! It's getting me pissed especially wen ppl ask for opinions and later dismiss it as juz mere gibberish! Every thought counts sia! You want opinion, you hear it! U wana judge, you dont be bias! You wana decide, think of others! You wana accuse, make sure you urself dont do such stuff! Nvr, I mean Nvr make a judgement unless absolute assurance is contemplated over! And plz... Dont think big if you cant even think right! Seek guidiance la, or foreva hold ur peace! In other words, a narrowminded freako who thinks wadeva he saes is right and not see the value is other's words! Tt's wad I call a real FOOL!
*Sighz* I'm in need of aid... Gotta stop thinking abt stupid idiots! the more I think, the more I fall, and it's no use trying to solve it, its useless especially at this point of time! Shauks, gotta stop pondering ova such matters! Juz why oh why do i have to feel smth or act the way I do everytime... It competely makes no sense that I am thrilled coz... And dissapointed coz... Sheesh! I dont wana think! It doesnt even help aniway! Some idiots are so idiotic aniway! Lolz! Guys shouldnt be wimps! Haha, if they want smth, they should go get it! Dun juz sit there and wait for it to happen! Yikes, wad am I even sayin! okie okie, i beta chaioz before I metion animore smart crap!
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Yo... Wuzzup Fattie Wonkie!?! Haha... If you read this, plz spare me the next day sia! Lolz... I think the whole bus heard me callin you that man! Hahaha... see la! Ask me about the Fat molecule next time plz speak up ar! Heyz... now Zhong noe as well! Yuppers, this is funnie!!! Hehehe...
Went out with Zach to study again... Not bad, could actuali do it despite the constant 'blizzard'! Crap... this guy is really serious sia... Wants to take me jammin which is absolutely cool! and to the cinema and a whole lota stuff... But although I hate to break his heart, I've got exams around da corner so I prolly won't do anything of this sort... And judging by the amount of ppl askin me out during the holidaes, I dun even think I can hit the books sia! Shauks! Shall hafta decline some dates...
Juz downloaded Kazaa a few momments ago! yeah man!!! Juz.... I cant rem wad songs I want now... Rite... Why do I always hafta do that...! Forget! I guess I do have a three second memory spent! Hahaha... *Grinz*
Went out with Zach to study again... Not bad, could actuali do it despite the constant 'blizzard'! Crap... this guy is really serious sia... Wants to take me jammin which is absolutely cool! and to the cinema and a whole lota stuff... But although I hate to break his heart, I've got exams around da corner so I prolly won't do anything of this sort... And judging by the amount of ppl askin me out during the holidaes, I dun even think I can hit the books sia! Shauks! Shall hafta decline some dates...
Juz downloaded Kazaa a few momments ago! yeah man!!! Juz.... I cant rem wad songs I want now... Rite... Why do I always hafta do that...! Forget! I guess I do have a three second memory spent! Hahaha... *Grinz*
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
I shud as well give up... Thinking such things could actuali be dangerous... And I'm in no right to think of such stuff now, shud leave relations to after exams... I mean wad are the odds of a wish bein possible?! There are prolly a million factors acting against what I want, so it prolly only takes a miricale to make it happen... And with zach and all, I have no idea how to eva manage to get what I want...! This sux!
Haggin on the line is juz making me miserable... I dont noe whr or whu to turn to... I dun wana put pressure on anybody and espcially not him... but am I suppose to bear it alone?! Hmm, I did it before, maybe I can do it again... But this time, it'll prolly hurt much more... I'm holding back so much in hope of one small thing but yet i noe I'm risking so much! Great! I shud start a comic book on my life! It'll prolly be a drama hit! Lolz... nahla, I've heard of worse... but tts usually coz da dupid idiot has no control ova it! Hahaz...
Haggin on the line is juz making me miserable... I dont noe whr or whu to turn to... I dun wana put pressure on anybody and espcially not him... but am I suppose to bear it alone?! Hmm, I did it before, maybe I can do it again... But this time, it'll prolly hurt much more... I'm holding back so much in hope of one small thing but yet i noe I'm risking so much! Great! I shud start a comic book on my life! It'll prolly be a drama hit! Lolz... nahla, I've heard of worse... but tts usually coz da dupid idiot has no control ova it! Hahaz...
Monday, August 16, 2004
Jeez... Messed up... And once I told a fren all this relation probs were gettin more hot and freaky by the second, and thank god I'm not in one... Man! I shudnt have said it too soon sia! Wads a gal like me doing in such a situation like this now aniway! It aint fair!
Theis idiot prolly doesnt even noe I like him and wad if worse, he noes and dont feel the same way?! And now, I have two other idiots going for me but I seriously want that other two guys! They juz seem to treat me as a fren! Yikes, but I seem to want more than that! Am I seriously even thinking straight?! Am I, Angela Michaela, one of the biggest guy hater in da world actuali reali liking and wanting someone this badly?! If that guy would actuali show feelings for moi, it will be too hell with the others... I cant believe I thought I could live to play him but i seem to be drawing too close that if that plastic sheet of barier were to tear, I could be fallin... Me fallin is already literally hilarious! But for some guy I was suppose to prank, hate and tease?! How can this be happening to me?! He is so mean yet so sweet, so cold yet so warm... And why does he have to make me laugh all the time?! He seems immune to my hate! And the other cute fella, he is nuffin but a wise guy! Stupid fool always bein sarcastic and serious! Yet he is so sweet at times wen I really need help... Crap, I cant believe this two arsholes are what I want out of millions of guys who come wanting me...
And now Zach wants me too... A super duper cute idiot whom is equally sweet as well! he's popular, cool, sporty, talented and he plays the electric guitar so well... And he's ina band tooz...! Cool or wad! haha, yea... He is wad so many gals want but cant have... So yup, he asked da obvious and i told him go wait... So he still waiting and blardy hell, da boy is more eager than I thought...! Said it was coz of my O's... Though seriously, I think its way more than juz that... If the guy I reali wants juz breaks for me, i might juz break Zach's hart... I'll prolly feel so bad but for once, let me have wat I reali want...
Aniway, I gotta take my mind off that situation for a while... Lets see, I have plenty of other probs too... I'm retaking my MT O's so yea... And my dupid Ex think he can make use of me so think again buster! If pleasure is what I really want, I can get it almost aniwhr and frm ani guy I want! And da fool actuali thinks I am in need of that...! Rite...
Oh man... I have juz fallen in love with that song i think by Mcfly, She's outa my league... So cool...! Ok, I seriously need kazaa soon before I juz die!
Theis idiot prolly doesnt even noe I like him and wad if worse, he noes and dont feel the same way?! And now, I have two other idiots going for me but I seriously want that other two guys! They juz seem to treat me as a fren! Yikes, but I seem to want more than that! Am I seriously even thinking straight?! Am I, Angela Michaela, one of the biggest guy hater in da world actuali reali liking and wanting someone this badly?! If that guy would actuali show feelings for moi, it will be too hell with the others... I cant believe I thought I could live to play him but i seem to be drawing too close that if that plastic sheet of barier were to tear, I could be fallin... Me fallin is already literally hilarious! But for some guy I was suppose to prank, hate and tease?! How can this be happening to me?! He is so mean yet so sweet, so cold yet so warm... And why does he have to make me laugh all the time?! He seems immune to my hate! And the other cute fella, he is nuffin but a wise guy! Stupid fool always bein sarcastic and serious! Yet he is so sweet at times wen I really need help... Crap, I cant believe this two arsholes are what I want out of millions of guys who come wanting me...
And now Zach wants me too... A super duper cute idiot whom is equally sweet as well! he's popular, cool, sporty, talented and he plays the electric guitar so well... And he's ina band tooz...! Cool or wad! haha, yea... He is wad so many gals want but cant have... So yup, he asked da obvious and i told him go wait... So he still waiting and blardy hell, da boy is more eager than I thought...! Said it was coz of my O's... Though seriously, I think its way more than juz that... If the guy I reali wants juz breaks for me, i might juz break Zach's hart... I'll prolly feel so bad but for once, let me have wat I reali want...
Aniway, I gotta take my mind off that situation for a while... Lets see, I have plenty of other probs too... I'm retaking my MT O's so yea... And my dupid Ex think he can make use of me so think again buster! If pleasure is what I really want, I can get it almost aniwhr and frm ani guy I want! And da fool actuali thinks I am in need of that...! Rite...
Oh man... I have juz fallen in love with that song i think by Mcfly, She's outa my league... So cool...! Ok, I seriously need kazaa soon before I juz die!
Friday, August 13, 2004
haiz.... Theres so much that happen within the last time I blog but guess wad, i'm so tired and stress rite now, and dun forget, lazy to type anything... It was all so fast and confusing!
Got my grades, got asked to go steady and even face crap from adults I noe... My life is such a screwed up mess now, i juz wan some idiot to juz take me away and promise me comfort sia... Hmm, wad I want now is juz a huggie!!!
Got my grades, got asked to go steady and even face crap from adults I noe... My life is such a screwed up mess now, i juz wan some idiot to juz take me away and promise me comfort sia... Hmm, wad I want now is juz a huggie!!!
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
*Grinz...* Went out todae with Ron, Zhac and Shive again... Actually was with Zhac den Ron wanted company b4 she went to meet Shive... Hmm, we were all planin on another soccer match todae... But I cudnt get Merp and Zmus! The two enthu people for soccer! And Ron can't come coz she was goin out in the aftnoon with shive, so morn, she gotta kinda "study!" Lolz... And Benji didnt do his Hw so mummy grounded him... So, Zhac said to cancel the soccer thing and go out for a movie...
Yea... So we did... Went to watch the village at TM coz i didnt wana go far and it was kinda the only place we can go so yea... The show was like shocking yet lame... and i fogot my blardy jacket so i was like freezing in there! The movie was stupid coz the monsters wernt real sia! but there was a little funni part in thee begini... haha... the gal was confessing her love...
Den aft tt, we went to macs, but half the time, we spent it wondering wad to do and talk about... Well, Pris called den, wen we were abt to watch the nex movie, and told me tt me and Zach wud hafta lie for her if her mom calls.
Yea... So we did... Went to watch the village at TM coz i didnt wana go far and it was kinda the only place we can go so yea... The show was like shocking yet lame... and i fogot my blardy jacket so i was like freezing in there! The movie was stupid coz the monsters wernt real sia! but there was a little funni part in thee begini... haha... the gal was confessing her love...
Den aft tt, we went to macs, but half the time, we spent it wondering wad to do and talk about... Well, Pris called den, wen we were abt to watch the nex movie, and told me tt me and Zach wud hafta lie for her if her mom calls.
Monday, August 09, 2004
Sunday (on da day itself) : Shive wanted to see Ron and me so I kinda pulled Dhan along coz I firstly dono how to get to Holy trin and secondly, not goin to see shive alone sia! So I attended mass with Ron and her fam and lite BoonBin... whu was stuck to me like glue! Dhan sae Boon is seriously is obsess with me... Lolz... Aniway, Dhan had RCIA and so he cudnt sit with me Ron and fam for the mass... and too bad, coz i was seriously damn cold there! So half the time, I was hugging Boon like crazy! lolz, the small fry was angry he cudnt take holy communion... Saw Mot.Igy there so he kept starin at me and even msged me... but as usual I didnt reply till much later... He was the last of my troubs on my mind then...
Aft mass, met up with Dhan, ditched Boon and took a bus to TM sun plaza... whereva tt is... Wen I saw Shive, I kinda went straight behind Dhan's back... Shive was bigger den Ron and he was smokin! According to Ron, Dhan and Shive nvr like each other... And though I have nuffin against Shive, he kinda freaks me out! Aniway, we chatted abt the thing and later we decided to go to TM, coz Dhan wanted to go look at guitars and Shive wanted to buy hair dye I think... So me and Dhan walked on ahead to the store first and later Ron and Shive catched up... They were standing outside the Yamaha shop so I went out to sae hi... And i didnt reali noticed the tension till Ron was like bitchin and almost tearin... I wanted to hug her and all but she kinda said tt she shudnt show this infront of shive... I was so realived tt Dhan came out soon enuff...
So Shive kinda left on his own way while me and Dhan decided to walk Ron home... We chatted much on the way... And San called sia... Me and Ron was like, Shit! shit! loolz... It was her bdae and none of us went... I mean me Ron Zmus and Merp nevr had the intention of goin aniway... And the whole soccer thing was for San and Dhan aniway, we wanted to see Dhan make a fool of himself infront of San... I was invited along as frens with Zmus and Merp to juz have fun... I havent actauli seen Dhan in my life but I've seen Benji and Kiren, Ron and Zums bro... And wen I was like there the first time, it was kinda bad! I was playin too near the goal with Merp and guess wad! Of all times, Dhan had to miss the goal and hit a direct ball to me abdomen... It wasnt the pain tt mattered but more the impact that sent me breathless for a few moments... At least he said sorri...
San arrived later and she kinda stood one side the whole time... she could have gotten involve but nah, she wanted to remained there so fine... she came up to me and said, wad do ya think of Dhan?! coz u see she was made to come here coz Dhan thought her name was cute and the Elpundas wanted to make him act like a fool infront of her... So, this was planed... but Dhan and San didnt even talk to each other... So back to the question, I think she was checkin him out ont he feild and so I answered... Well, he was the bez lookin one on the feild... I didnt sae cute or anythin, juz the best one out of all the others... Like Kk and some chinese guy and some other guys... Den she left soon after and me and Boon walked her to the trafficlight at the coner of BVSS...
Then, after we were done with soccer, Zmus and Kiren left first while me Merp, Ron, me bro, Dhan, Boon and Ben went to Pri's block there the coffeshop to have a drink... We had an alrite time and then, they walked me home... So back to Sunday, after we left Ron at home, Dhan and I decided to walk to Semei and take 9... It was a long walk sia... And onli dhan knew the way so i juz followed and chated... When we reached, He wanted a drink and I too was like thirsty so we went to coffe bean or was it starbucks, i cant rem, so aniway... He pushed his tuition back and wen we were there, he saw his aunt and was like frantic and ran straight out! Lolz, it was damn funni! His aunt was his tuition teacher see, so he was naturally freaked... We went and took a bus across the road and guess which... not 9 but 38! Yikes! I totally forgot dee told me tt 38 can only be taked on the same side to get back to Bedok, so thankgod Dhana noticed and we switched to a 9 a few bustops later... Den he walked me home b4 grabin his stuff to leave for tuition again...
Rite... so wen i went home I went online and was glad to see my puppy on! So I told him all abt the prob and yea, he kinda cheered me up yet again... Lolz, he was adorable... later sally came on and I kinda told him too... I actuali wanted to tell him earlier coz I tot he was one person who prolly noe how to handle crap like this... so aniway, he stayed and chat with me and kinda assured me and make me think... Which i kinda like from a wise fool like him... I seriously think the two idiots are such a good team, one idiot craps and make me laugh, the other assures me and make me think! Both of them are soo cute!!! Haha... I cant love them animore than I alreadi am!
Yea and Zmus called in the evening and asked if I wanted to join her in the Gym... I said no but I told her I wana talk to her so she complied and met me aft she went to the gym... Dee went for tt national day thingy downstaris so i kinda got quite alot of time with Zmus, and Kiren was there too... We talked... Alot... I told her wad happen after that saturday thing and much more... And she was like "Loolz... Am i the onli one without a prob?!" Haha, I gotta admit, it is real funni come to think of it... Me Ron Merp and San although Merp and San i havent actuali mentioned... So i guess I shall now... Hmm... Merp always had a thing for Dhan and she thoght Dhan had nver known... Though I found out frm Ron tt Dhan had always known and den, there is San whoom Zums and Ron were trying to get her and Dhan together... And guess wad... Ron sms me on sat durin tuition sayin dat Dhan thought I was hot... Of all ppl and all problem... I gotta be in this one too... So Zmus find it amusing dat Merp had always tot Dhan didnt noe and now this... But i seriously doubt Dhan has a thing for moi coz he hardly eva shows it... He seems the same to everyone so why am I botherin...
Aft mass, met up with Dhan, ditched Boon and took a bus to TM sun plaza... whereva tt is... Wen I saw Shive, I kinda went straight behind Dhan's back... Shive was bigger den Ron and he was smokin! According to Ron, Dhan and Shive nvr like each other... And though I have nuffin against Shive, he kinda freaks me out! Aniway, we chatted abt the thing and later we decided to go to TM, coz Dhan wanted to go look at guitars and Shive wanted to buy hair dye I think... So me and Dhan walked on ahead to the store first and later Ron and Shive catched up... They were standing outside the Yamaha shop so I went out to sae hi... And i didnt reali noticed the tension till Ron was like bitchin and almost tearin... I wanted to hug her and all but she kinda said tt she shudnt show this infront of shive... I was so realived tt Dhan came out soon enuff...
So Shive kinda left on his own way while me and Dhan decided to walk Ron home... We chatted much on the way... And San called sia... Me and Ron was like, Shit! shit! loolz... It was her bdae and none of us went... I mean me Ron Zmus and Merp nevr had the intention of goin aniway... And the whole soccer thing was for San and Dhan aniway, we wanted to see Dhan make a fool of himself infront of San... I was invited along as frens with Zmus and Merp to juz have fun... I havent actauli seen Dhan in my life but I've seen Benji and Kiren, Ron and Zums bro... And wen I was like there the first time, it was kinda bad! I was playin too near the goal with Merp and guess wad! Of all times, Dhan had to miss the goal and hit a direct ball to me abdomen... It wasnt the pain tt mattered but more the impact that sent me breathless for a few moments... At least he said sorri...
San arrived later and she kinda stood one side the whole time... she could have gotten involve but nah, she wanted to remained there so fine... she came up to me and said, wad do ya think of Dhan?! coz u see she was made to come here coz Dhan thought her name was cute and the Elpundas wanted to make him act like a fool infront of her... So, this was planed... but Dhan and San didnt even talk to each other... So back to the question, I think she was checkin him out ont he feild and so I answered... Well, he was the bez lookin one on the feild... I didnt sae cute or anythin, juz the best one out of all the others... Like Kk and some chinese guy and some other guys... Den she left soon after and me and Boon walked her to the trafficlight at the coner of BVSS...
Then, after we were done with soccer, Zmus and Kiren left first while me Merp, Ron, me bro, Dhan, Boon and Ben went to Pri's block there the coffeshop to have a drink... We had an alrite time and then, they walked me home... So back to Sunday, after we left Ron at home, Dhan and I decided to walk to Semei and take 9... It was a long walk sia... And onli dhan knew the way so i juz followed and chated... When we reached, He wanted a drink and I too was like thirsty so we went to coffe bean or was it starbucks, i cant rem, so aniway... He pushed his tuition back and wen we were there, he saw his aunt and was like frantic and ran straight out! Lolz, it was damn funni! His aunt was his tuition teacher see, so he was naturally freaked... We went and took a bus across the road and guess which... not 9 but 38! Yikes! I totally forgot dee told me tt 38 can only be taked on the same side to get back to Bedok, so thankgod Dhana noticed and we switched to a 9 a few bustops later... Den he walked me home b4 grabin his stuff to leave for tuition again...
Rite... so wen i went home I went online and was glad to see my puppy on! So I told him all abt the prob and yea, he kinda cheered me up yet again... Lolz, he was adorable... later sally came on and I kinda told him too... I actuali wanted to tell him earlier coz I tot he was one person who prolly noe how to handle crap like this... so aniway, he stayed and chat with me and kinda assured me and make me think... Which i kinda like from a wise fool like him... I seriously think the two idiots are such a good team, one idiot craps and make me laugh, the other assures me and make me think! Both of them are soo cute!!! Haha... I cant love them animore than I alreadi am!
Yea and Zmus called in the evening and asked if I wanted to join her in the Gym... I said no but I told her I wana talk to her so she complied and met me aft she went to the gym... Dee went for tt national day thingy downstaris so i kinda got quite alot of time with Zmus, and Kiren was there too... We talked... Alot... I told her wad happen after that saturday thing and much more... And she was like "Loolz... Am i the onli one without a prob?!" Haha, I gotta admit, it is real funni come to think of it... Me Ron Merp and San although Merp and San i havent actuali mentioned... So i guess I shall now... Hmm... Merp always had a thing for Dhan and she thoght Dhan had nver known... Though I found out frm Ron tt Dhan had always known and den, there is San whoom Zums and Ron were trying to get her and Dhan together... And guess wad... Ron sms me on sat durin tuition sayin dat Dhan thought I was hot... Of all ppl and all problem... I gotta be in this one too... So Zmus find it amusing dat Merp had always tot Dhan didnt noe and now this... But i seriously doubt Dhan has a thing for moi coz he hardly eva shows it... He seems the same to everyone so why am I botherin...
Sunday: Rite... How am I soppose to start this crap... My life from saturday mornin has been ruin... Ok, so maybe not everything since I've still got the people whom i love close to my heart...! Though they prolly dont noe who they are coz i treat almost everyone the same... sweet nice and friedly... Lolz...
Thats not the point now... Aniway, I gotta record this down... I juz need to... Ron was playin with my pda yesterdae during the soccer thing and wen i tried to get it back, i got draged off by Zmus and Merp and i litteraly had blueblack and some of my skin atuali peeled... I didnt tell them aniway, it was kinda a small matter compared to the one I'm gettin at... So, Ron was msgin Elf and she actuali played him into thinkin she was me msgin... she wanted to see how Elf looked like... and the whole time, she planed something I didnt even noe...
All of a sudden, She asked if I could follow her to NTUC, I didnt noe anything wud happen, BoonBin taged along as usual, so we all did including San and Kiren... Wen we were goin there she told me abt the plan and I seriously didnt wana go through with it... I was so hessitant but I still went to the NTUC aniway coz i was damn thirsty!And i got freaked before Elf came so I ran off first, back to the court where Zmus and Merp saw i was in distrees and went to get Ron back for me... I didnt noe Ron had told him where i was originally, which was the court and Elf said he saw me... but all the time, it was onli Ron who got all the msges so I didnt noe anything... I dont even remember how he looked like since the last time he stalked me! It was one of the scariest moments in my life... And now this?!
I never reali liked Elf, he was juz another one of those guys who found an interest in me and got hooked on... He was damn sick and he's msges made me so uncomfortable! Den later on, on Satarday, he msged me during tuition and i didnt see the msg till aft my tuition and i almost got the shock of my life! He was sending curse msges at me! full of vulgarities and crap! I tried explainin but he nvr listened and started accusing me of setting the whole thing up to make fun of him! Oh plz, even if I wud do smth lidat, he's not worth my blardy time man! And I wud nvr even hurt a fly, much less some guy who looks like KingKong...
So he threatened me for Ron's no or he would take this up to the police, I felt so angry when I noe I have to give in , I dun like the feeling of being commanded and all! Much less to noe that my fren will get into trouble for smth stupid like this! So aniway, Elf didnt msg Ron so Ron decided to msg him instead and say sorri, so she did, and he didnt replied... Which scared her and ridiculously, she turned to her bf Shive. And guess wad Shive did, he asked for Elf's no and msged him too... I guess he wanted to stand up for his gal and all, so he asked Elf to mit him somewhr to talk to him so I was told... And Elf took it as a threat and went straight to the police! He made a statement told them my hp no and worse still! Tell them that Shive was MY bf!!! Wad kinda crap is this man!
This whole thing is screwed up! I'm suppose to hear from some Officer named rudy I think within a span of two weeks... Haiz, this is so ridiculous! I'm a minor and he's like 19, or so he told me but he told Shive he was 30 had a wife and two kids! Stupid rite?! I mean this idiot was the one who stalked me and send me all those sick msges! And now he tells me to get off from his back?! I cant even believe how ridiculous all this sounds!
Aniway, all i want is for everything to be alright! I dun care how much I have to hurt for this, but I nvr wanted this to hurt my frens as well, and wad if worse?! My family found out?! My whole life will be screwed! They will think I'm not responible and all my stuff will be gone even if it werent my fault! And this Elf guy stays near me sia! I'm so afraid that one day i might juz bump ionto him! I guess Dhana is the only one I can depend on rite now coz he lives closest to me... But thats as much as I can do...
Dear Jae plz hear my cry... I reali need u by my side... I noe I didnt do no wrong but yet I'm afraid for the ones I love and hold dear to my heart... I dun wan anione to get hurt... Especially not my frens who have more than enuff troub for themselves and my fam and frens to worry abt me... So pls my sweet Jae, be with me and take care of those whom I love... If anything shud happen, I know I'm the onli one whu shud face this wrath... Not my family, not my frens... I dunwan anione else to get hurt but me...
I cudnt sleep the whole night at all and I hardly ate a thing... My dinner was a few strings and my sleep was ridiculous! I hope I get the call soon coz I dont want this to meddle with the rest of my life and take ova it... I noe I'm strong, much stronger than most would eva noe, but I cant let this interfere with my studies, my family, my frens... I wana do well in everything and make everyone and myself happi... I dun want troub to affect all these especially for smth I didnt do no wrong in....
Elf is seriously narrow minded and conceited! Ron made a mistake, so fine, she even said sorry and now he's making a mountain out of a molehill! He didnt bother how anione wud feel ecept for himself! He jumps into conclusions and make stupid assumptions! I can't understand how anione can be so heartless and dispicable! He is incapable of good judgement and juz think that the whole world revolves around him... Whu da hell does he thinks he is?! To me, all I can see is a blardy coward!
Thats not the point now... Aniway, I gotta record this down... I juz need to... Ron was playin with my pda yesterdae during the soccer thing and wen i tried to get it back, i got draged off by Zmus and Merp and i litteraly had blueblack and some of my skin atuali peeled... I didnt tell them aniway, it was kinda a small matter compared to the one I'm gettin at... So, Ron was msgin Elf and she actuali played him into thinkin she was me msgin... she wanted to see how Elf looked like... and the whole time, she planed something I didnt even noe...
All of a sudden, She asked if I could follow her to NTUC, I didnt noe anything wud happen, BoonBin taged along as usual, so we all did including San and Kiren... Wen we were goin there she told me abt the plan and I seriously didnt wana go through with it... I was so hessitant but I still went to the NTUC aniway coz i was damn thirsty!And i got freaked before Elf came so I ran off first, back to the court where Zmus and Merp saw i was in distrees and went to get Ron back for me... I didnt noe Ron had told him where i was originally, which was the court and Elf said he saw me... but all the time, it was onli Ron who got all the msges so I didnt noe anything... I dont even remember how he looked like since the last time he stalked me! It was one of the scariest moments in my life... And now this?!
I never reali liked Elf, he was juz another one of those guys who found an interest in me and got hooked on... He was damn sick and he's msges made me so uncomfortable! Den later on, on Satarday, he msged me during tuition and i didnt see the msg till aft my tuition and i almost got the shock of my life! He was sending curse msges at me! full of vulgarities and crap! I tried explainin but he nvr listened and started accusing me of setting the whole thing up to make fun of him! Oh plz, even if I wud do smth lidat, he's not worth my blardy time man! And I wud nvr even hurt a fly, much less some guy who looks like KingKong...
So he threatened me for Ron's no or he would take this up to the police, I felt so angry when I noe I have to give in , I dun like the feeling of being commanded and all! Much less to noe that my fren will get into trouble for smth stupid like this! So aniway, Elf didnt msg Ron so Ron decided to msg him instead and say sorri, so she did, and he didnt replied... Which scared her and ridiculously, she turned to her bf Shive. And guess wad Shive did, he asked for Elf's no and msged him too... I guess he wanted to stand up for his gal and all, so he asked Elf to mit him somewhr to talk to him so I was told... And Elf took it as a threat and went straight to the police! He made a statement told them my hp no and worse still! Tell them that Shive was MY bf!!! Wad kinda crap is this man!
This whole thing is screwed up! I'm suppose to hear from some Officer named rudy I think within a span of two weeks... Haiz, this is so ridiculous! I'm a minor and he's like 19, or so he told me but he told Shive he was 30 had a wife and two kids! Stupid rite?! I mean this idiot was the one who stalked me and send me all those sick msges! And now he tells me to get off from his back?! I cant even believe how ridiculous all this sounds!
Aniway, all i want is for everything to be alright! I dun care how much I have to hurt for this, but I nvr wanted this to hurt my frens as well, and wad if worse?! My family found out?! My whole life will be screwed! They will think I'm not responible and all my stuff will be gone even if it werent my fault! And this Elf guy stays near me sia! I'm so afraid that one day i might juz bump ionto him! I guess Dhana is the only one I can depend on rite now coz he lives closest to me... But thats as much as I can do...
Dear Jae plz hear my cry... I reali need u by my side... I noe I didnt do no wrong but yet I'm afraid for the ones I love and hold dear to my heart... I dun wan anione to get hurt... Especially not my frens who have more than enuff troub for themselves and my fam and frens to worry abt me... So pls my sweet Jae, be with me and take care of those whom I love... If anything shud happen, I know I'm the onli one whu shud face this wrath... Not my family, not my frens... I dunwan anione else to get hurt but me...
I cudnt sleep the whole night at all and I hardly ate a thing... My dinner was a few strings and my sleep was ridiculous! I hope I get the call soon coz I dont want this to meddle with the rest of my life and take ova it... I noe I'm strong, much stronger than most would eva noe, but I cant let this interfere with my studies, my family, my frens... I wana do well in everything and make everyone and myself happi... I dun want troub to affect all these especially for smth I didnt do no wrong in....
Elf is seriously narrow minded and conceited! Ron made a mistake, so fine, she even said sorry and now he's making a mountain out of a molehill! He didnt bother how anione wud feel ecept for himself! He jumps into conclusions and make stupid assumptions! I can't understand how anione can be so heartless and dispicable! He is incapable of good judgement and juz think that the whole world revolves around him... Whu da hell does he thinks he is?! To me, all I can see is a blardy coward!
Friday, August 06, 2004
Yupz... Had the celebration and Prayer service todae... Felt a little bad that I couldn't attend the wake or funeral... But still, a heartfelt prayer is good enuff... Den, went home to take a bath before heading out to meet Nat on the bus... And as usual, I was late and the bus was so damn crowded! And some dupid Bedok school kids dun wana move in! So pissin! Me and Nat arrived late and met Chro and Drew at the TM control station. And thank goodness i remembered to pass Drew sally's prezzie... Nat was hungry so we went to burgerking while the bois go help us get the tickets first...
Met Sa at B.K and da bois called to sae Ella Enchanted was sold out so we got King Auther instead... And the movie was great tooz! I enjoyed it lots! Though Sa had to leave 3/4 way it was still a good show... and Chro was on my other side... wanted to talk to him about something but didn't actuali get the chance the whole time... Man, i seriously gotta talk, or i might juz die not tellin anibodi, or worse still, not gettin ani help! Okie, back to the sub, we finished the movie den Nat had to go tuition and I advised Cha to go home and sleep since he feels sick... yikes, though i needed him to stay... hmm, so me and drew cruised around the place, first to spotlight den to Macs to get ice cream... We chat alot! And yea reali... Juz chat... And the poor boi had a strain in his arms so i was kinda half pokin half massagin it... Lolz... Den wen i got tired, I decided to head home and slack... and hope someone was there to help me with my stuff...
And yea... Thank god he came on after awhile... Needed help... And dee was like toyin with me prezie and he told me about two intersting article... One about Mr quah! And another reali cute one...! Its both on streats and the cute one is on page 24!
Met Sa at B.K and da bois called to sae Ella Enchanted was sold out so we got King Auther instead... And the movie was great tooz! I enjoyed it lots! Though Sa had to leave 3/4 way it was still a good show... and Chro was on my other side... wanted to talk to him about something but didn't actuali get the chance the whole time... Man, i seriously gotta talk, or i might juz die not tellin anibodi, or worse still, not gettin ani help! Okie, back to the sub, we finished the movie den Nat had to go tuition and I advised Cha to go home and sleep since he feels sick... yikes, though i needed him to stay... hmm, so me and drew cruised around the place, first to spotlight den to Macs to get ice cream... We chat alot! And yea reali... Juz chat... And the poor boi had a strain in his arms so i was kinda half pokin half massagin it... Lolz... Den wen i got tired, I decided to head home and slack... and hope someone was there to help me with my stuff...
And yea... Thank god he came on after awhile... Needed help... And dee was like toyin with me prezie and he told me about two intersting article... One about Mr quah! And another reali cute one...! Its both on streats and the cute one is on page 24!
Thursday, August 05, 2004
BoO!! Lolz... I have no idea why I like dat now but it does not matter... Will be going out tmorrow with the whole bunch of Cat people to watch Ela Enchanted...! And hopefully, I can pass Drew Sally's prezzie...! Haha, any longer with me and I will keep it till kingdom come sia! And Chander beta bring his pillow for me man! Lolz... He promised!
Got back my oral yesterdae and it was utterlly crapified! So wad if I got a distinction?! It was still so horrible compared to the rest! I can't believe I was so nervous I screwed it up! Yikes! I seriously need to go train or something... And lolz, the filming was yesterdae tooz...! I didnt noe it was for Grad Nite sia! Why didnt the tell me?! I tot it was for some dupid vedio! And now they tell me and it was so like ridiculously long! Lolz, it was damn funni too sia! Man, I hope I look fine enough on Grad Nite so that the vedio is nuffin but a laugh!
Rushed home early todae as soon as the bell rang! I cudn't wait to get my keyboard! And now I do! Actuali, I was playin since I got on it till I came online... Hehez... God, the keyboard is so hot! I muz learn how to upload MIDI files quick! Haha, Its like a child's new toy sia! Jeez... $750 beta not go to waste man!
Got back my oral yesterdae and it was utterlly crapified! So wad if I got a distinction?! It was still so horrible compared to the rest! I can't believe I was so nervous I screwed it up! Yikes! I seriously need to go train or something... And lolz, the filming was yesterdae tooz...! I didnt noe it was for Grad Nite sia! Why didnt the tell me?! I tot it was for some dupid vedio! And now they tell me and it was so like ridiculously long! Lolz, it was damn funni too sia! Man, I hope I look fine enough on Grad Nite so that the vedio is nuffin but a laugh!
Rushed home early todae as soon as the bell rang! I cudn't wait to get my keyboard! And now I do! Actuali, I was playin since I got on it till I came online... Hehez... God, the keyboard is so hot! I muz learn how to upload MIDI files quick! Haha, Its like a child's new toy sia! Jeez... $750 beta not go to waste man!
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
Hmm... Got back our progress card todae, It wasnt that bad, though Mr Tan said I improved and did well, I still think it kindsa sux! I juz noe that this is not what I should be expecting for my calibre... Me noe me not super genius but laziness has cost me much... I'm pickin up my workin pace again but still, I dont reali think its good enough... Crap, if I onli had discipline I noe I can do much... Gotta start botherin about everything again...
Since there is nothin else much to write, I'm gonna complain about the two most monstrous partners that sit beside me like I promised! Lolz... They are juz crapified sia! Everydae bully me and coz me sit in the centre, its even worse! Haha, Denise hates that I'm messy with my stuff most of the time and she will start literally scoldin me and packin my things... Hahaha, she very the cute lor... Always threatenin me with her stationary whenever I forgot one of her "rules"! And then, there is Ster who keeps pokin me and disturbin me for the weirdest of reasons like coz she had nothin else beta ta do... Seriously, She's a born idiot man! Haha! Den when I try to fight back, she keeps whining for me to stop disturbin her! I mean haiz! She started it first lor! Den when I start complainin to Nise, She sides with Ster and told me to stop fightin! Lolz... They always so mean one! They can kajiao me but I can't do anything! Hahaha! So mean sia!
Okie... then, there is the 3 idiots dat sits infront of me... Sheesh, now tts another story for another dae... I cant be bothered to type!
Since there is nothin else much to write, I'm gonna complain about the two most monstrous partners that sit beside me like I promised! Lolz... They are juz crapified sia! Everydae bully me and coz me sit in the centre, its even worse! Haha, Denise hates that I'm messy with my stuff most of the time and she will start literally scoldin me and packin my things... Hahaha, she very the cute lor... Always threatenin me with her stationary whenever I forgot one of her "rules"! And then, there is Ster who keeps pokin me and disturbin me for the weirdest of reasons like coz she had nothin else beta ta do... Seriously, She's a born idiot man! Haha! Den when I try to fight back, she keeps whining for me to stop disturbin her! I mean haiz! She started it first lor! Den when I start complainin to Nise, She sides with Ster and told me to stop fightin! Lolz... They always so mean one! They can kajiao me but I can't do anything! Hahaha! So mean sia!
Okie... then, there is the 3 idiots dat sits infront of me... Sheesh, now tts another story for another dae... I cant be bothered to type!
Monday, August 02, 2004
I heard a piece of rumour this morning while walking to school with Priya, She told me she heared that Mr Quah had passed away last nite at ard 7.00pm And she thought of all people, I would have known this because I was the head of CAC. Priya got into the finals for the PASA English Speaking Competition, the most prestigous of its kind. So Cool!!!She beat schools like Victoria, the high and mighty Victoria,some Serangoon school....and many other cool ones.
Morning Assembly was on as usual but in the hall(it was raining). but something weird after that. Firstly, Mr John Lim gave a imprompto speech on stage on God knows what and God knows when. *Ster:haha it was so funny...he was saying something like how well his posture is for this, how his feet were placed at an appropriate position. P.S.not too far and not too near..Geez man...*
Finally it was over and we were made to watch a movie'The Princess Diaries" It was so long since I watched that show but it was still quite funny. We had an hour plus of laughs but in the meantime there were weird hustle and bustle of students and teachers. Then after the whole movie we were sent back to class. The morning was weird enough but then the teachers did not appear for most of the classes. Lao Shi came on and she gave her experiences with Mr Quah and she told us that no news is to be released until 12.15pm the class was already anticipating the news as the rumours had spread like wild fire and the tennis girls were M.I.A......LOL
We had recess and then Mr Tan's lesson... and he said there was a change of schedule in our after school activities and we were wondering why..@ 12.15, we were shooed to the hall..and THE NEWS was broken to us. Mr Quah had passed away @ 6.38am, wondered who got the news that it was 7.00 that he left.There was an unearthly deadly silence.*Geez it was terrible...man...she like purposely want us to cry wan lor....so sad...the teachers had some red eyes... :( oh no so sad:(* Sister Theodora led us in prayer for a while before we were sent back to class...*so Sad:(*
After that, Mr Tan that idiot, started to tell us about Mr Quah's past deeds... how good he was, how he struggled to live on,how mrs quah stayed through his peril.*so sad :(*... Ms chia was there too and she was the sole idiot that was present when he left too. He nearly cried in front of us. *fine okay fine, I need the tissue papers..3 guesses*.I completed my s.s question a and did a little with Ster....We went sent home at 1.45. we skipped lessons from 12.15 to 1.45 pm.
Thus was the end of my school day.*so sad!!*
Morning Assembly was on as usual but in the hall(it was raining). but something weird after that. Firstly, Mr John Lim gave a imprompto speech on stage on God knows what and God knows when. *Ster:haha it was so funny...he was saying something like how well his posture is for this, how his feet were placed at an appropriate position. P.S.not too far and not too near..Geez man...*
Finally it was over and we were made to watch a movie'The Princess Diaries" It was so long since I watched that show but it was still quite funny. We had an hour plus of laughs but in the meantime there were weird hustle and bustle of students and teachers. Then after the whole movie we were sent back to class. The morning was weird enough but then the teachers did not appear for most of the classes. Lao Shi came on and she gave her experiences with Mr Quah and she told us that no news is to be released until 12.15pm the class was already anticipating the news as the rumours had spread like wild fire and the tennis girls were M.I.A......LOL
We had recess and then Mr Tan's lesson... and he said there was a change of schedule in our after school activities and we were wondering why..@ 12.15, we were shooed to the hall..and THE NEWS was broken to us. Mr Quah had passed away @ 6.38am, wondered who got the news that it was 7.00 that he left.There was an unearthly deadly silence.*Geez it was terrible...man...she like purposely want us to cry wan lor....so sad...the teachers had some red eyes... :( oh no so sad:(* Sister Theodora led us in prayer for a while before we were sent back to class...*so Sad:(*
After that, Mr Tan that idiot, started to tell us about Mr Quah's past deeds... how good he was, how he struggled to live on,how mrs quah stayed through his peril.*so sad :(*... Ms chia was there too and she was the sole idiot that was present when he left too. He nearly cried in front of us. *fine okay fine, I need the tissue papers..3 guesses*.I completed my s.s question a and did a little with Ster....We went sent home at 1.45. we skipped lessons from 12.15 to 1.45 pm.
Thus was the end of my school day.*so sad!!*
Sunday, August 01, 2004
Went for mass at 12 todae... and with Farrah and her Sis again... Until now, I still have no idea what her sista name is sia... Lolz, I think thats bad... But I noe they are from the same scholl and that she's a really good singer! If she actuali train that voice of her's, she can be real talented... Saw Lex at church too... Wished Lex wave or smth... Ah wellz, I was quite far away aniway...
Hafe losta Hw i think... Got 2 SS essay, Amath test wrksht and Bio test on Mon... Yikes, as usual, I prolly can't be bothered to do no nuffin! Crap... Why aint anione companyin me rite now?! I feel so bored out of me wits! Quick! Sum1 save me! Tok to moi! Lolz... Okie... Me think me goin a little kuku... So, Ta! Chaio! Audieu! Cya! Bb!
Hafe losta Hw i think... Got 2 SS essay, Amath test wrksht and Bio test on Mon... Yikes, as usual, I prolly can't be bothered to do no nuffin! Crap... Why aint anione companyin me rite now?! I feel so bored out of me wits! Quick! Sum1 save me! Tok to moi! Lolz... Okie... Me think me goin a little kuku... So, Ta! Chaio! Audieu! Cya! Bb!
Yesterdae, Sat 31st July: Lolz... I think I seriously have a time problem... I can never write my entries in own time... Aniwayz, Had my English Preliem Oral in the morning, I think I did ok but still... If I don't get destinction for Eng orals, I oughta go jump! It's the one thing I know that I can score in and that means I beta! Lolz, Ms Nunis was aking me to relax for my conversation! And she keep asking me questions for my picture descirbtion when I haven't even finish! Jeez, I wish I didnt get her for my oral examiner... Its bad enuff she's my own council teacher! She can go hasrsh on me cause she expects me to do better or she can favour me coz I'm one of her closest students! I hope she favours! But both ways, I can only tell when I get back my results... *sighz*
After my Orals, I went back home and wanted to take a nap but Mum called and ask me if I wanted to be picked up early to check out my Bdae Prezzie! A keyboard! Lolz, U.CM told me he found a pretty good one in United Square... So duh! I complied and was picked up early. First, We had to fetch Justin to his Art class at Newton Circle and he was telling me that after tmr, tmr, tmr... He was going to Korea and he asked me if I wanted to come... I was like " huh?! Mum, Wad he tokin ar?!" So mum traslated his babay talk and told me they were going to Korea in August, the whole Soh family and the Lim family... And wad did JuSt had to sae... " And the Ju family also!" Which means, him and Juliana! Lolz... Silly boy!
After we dropped him off for his class, We headed to United Sq to have lunch at some Noodle hut. Had la mian... Wadeva that is with shrimp dumplings! Den, we checked out the keyboard from I have no idea which music company... Not yamaha tts for sure... The one I picked was $750!!! Lolz... I beta make it worth Mum's and Unc's cash man! It has a 100 songs word bank and MIDI! Which can allow me to download songs from the Net! Isn't that cool or wad?! Lolz... and the guy who sold it to me got commision! So I guess I made someone else Hapi tooz! Hahaz...
The keyboard will be delivered to Mum's house on Sat and I can't wait! Den I had tuition until real late at nite so while Mum, Unc and 2 bros had buffet at Raffles Hotel, I had to go chow on Mac's later on... And as my Mum said... So poor thing ar! Lolz... I guees u win some, u loose some... But it didnt matter much to me sia... The only thing I regreat about yesterdae was that I didnt get to return home and see Ju at all... Hope I see her nex week... And that Sam will find his Drum pads fast! I wana play with it! Lolz...
After my Orals, I went back home and wanted to take a nap but Mum called and ask me if I wanted to be picked up early to check out my Bdae Prezzie! A keyboard! Lolz, U.CM told me he found a pretty good one in United Square... So duh! I complied and was picked up early. First, We had to fetch Justin to his Art class at Newton Circle and he was telling me that after tmr, tmr, tmr... He was going to Korea and he asked me if I wanted to come... I was like " huh?! Mum, Wad he tokin ar?!" So mum traslated his babay talk and told me they were going to Korea in August, the whole Soh family and the Lim family... And wad did JuSt had to sae... " And the Ju family also!" Which means, him and Juliana! Lolz... Silly boy!
After we dropped him off for his class, We headed to United Sq to have lunch at some Noodle hut. Had la mian... Wadeva that is with shrimp dumplings! Den, we checked out the keyboard from I have no idea which music company... Not yamaha tts for sure... The one I picked was $750!!! Lolz... I beta make it worth Mum's and Unc's cash man! It has a 100 songs word bank and MIDI! Which can allow me to download songs from the Net! Isn't that cool or wad?! Lolz... and the guy who sold it to me got commision! So I guess I made someone else Hapi tooz! Hahaz...
The keyboard will be delivered to Mum's house on Sat and I can't wait! Den I had tuition until real late at nite so while Mum, Unc and 2 bros had buffet at Raffles Hotel, I had to go chow on Mac's later on... And as my Mum said... So poor thing ar! Lolz... I guees u win some, u loose some... But it didnt matter much to me sia... The only thing I regreat about yesterdae was that I didnt get to return home and see Ju at all... Hope I see her nex week... And that Sam will find his Drum pads fast! I wana play with it! Lolz...
